I know this is like a month later, but don't let yourself feel like PCOS is the end. Like one person said, you are not your PCOS. Don't let these things stop you. If I let it stop me, I wouldn't have my two wonderful boys, which were through months and years of fertility treatments, meds, shots, ultrasounds, painful tests. I have also gone through my first son being born with Craniosynostosis and then I was diagnosed with Dermatofibrosarcoma Protuberance (a type of rare skin cancer). I think things happen to make you remember that you are strong, you can over come, and to remain positive. Your body always responds better when you are positive. However, never feel ashamed to cry. I have done a lot of that. You have people that care about you and will support you. You are not the only one and you have everyone here to reassure you that you will never go through it alone. I hope you are doing better and stay strong, you are woman!
Let yourself have a good cry. You've got a chronic condition. We have to grieve lossing our "healthy" selves. Or at least that self image. Once your finished grieving (and that doesn't have to happen quickly or anything); you'll be able to move into the coping/doing phase of the illness. Virtual Hugs and kleenex. Hope you have someone to give you a real one too. Jo
..you may not be able to really feel compassion toward others until you are able to feel compassionate toward yourself. Margaret Paul
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It's ok to get emotional. It's better to let it out rather than keep it bottled up inside of you. PCOS can lead you down a roller coaster of emotions. I have been dealing with it since my diagnosis 18 years ago and I still have my "why me?" moments but you just have to shake it off and not let PCOS define or consume you.
It's a blessing we have forums such as this where we can share our feelings and know there are people out there who understand what we are going through and are supportive.
I've never had an ultrasound before, but I think I'm going to have to get one in the next few weeks. Last week my doctor told me I most likely have PCOS and once she gets my bloodwork done she may ask me to come in for an ultrasound. I was wondering if anyone could tell me what to expect? I'm a little nervous...
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Hang in there! I know it's difficult dealing with something tied so closely to your emotions, but there's a lot of support here. I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago and I'm still learning about it. There's a lot of info out there, and the more you read up on it, the more you may gain from it.
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Hi Key! I hope since you've had some time to think things through, that you're feeling better. You don't have to feel down, because you're surrounded by so many supportive people who have gone through or are going through the same thing you are - you ain't alone honey.
I remember feeling terrible after getting diagnosed, but I told myself I am not my polycystic ovaries, or my high insulin levels, or my falling hair or my zit-y skin. I'm still me in here.
I also focused on the things I could control, and that was getting healthy and managing my symptoms. It's an everyday challenge, but keeping my eye on the ball instead of letting my emotions (which can get really crazy sometimes) get the best of me, really helps to keep me going.
Another thing that helps: Arm yourself with research and knowledge. The more you know, the more confident you'll feel.
****BIG HUGS**** I am so sorry! I have had similar experiences. It's okay to be emotional. We are here for you! This is a great, supportive place. And I am a living testimony to being able to turn things around when they seem so hopeless! If you ever need an ear, just let me know.
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Iím sorry to hear about the frustrating day that you had. I went for my second ultrasound almost a year ago I remember seeing nine cysts in each of my ovaries and at the time I felt discourage also. I share this with you to let you know that you are not alone. Since the beginning of the year I decided to take more of an active approach to improving my health and my cysts situation. I am 32 years old and I was diagnosed with PCOS over 10 years ago. Over the ten year I have read quite a few books on PCOS including joining groups online (such as this). This year I started to keep a personal journal to begin journaling about my feelings open and receptively and without judgment. In addition to that I started a blog and I began tweeting on twitter and using all forms of communication to share my feelings. One of the recent and most effective books that I am reading right now with regards to pcos is Healing Our Hormones healing our Lives by linda Crockett. She is an author that use to live in New York (such as myself) and now she lives in the UK and she is an Herbalist.
The book talks about all hormonal problems. I think you would really enjoy this book the author helps women with PCOS and all hormonal problems deal with the core of the cysts by asking us to forgive anyone from our past who has hurt us. To help myself heal I gave all 18 of my cysts a name. Some cysts I name a person from my past while others were things such as my body or my period anything that I felt that would help me deal with the core of my cysts. Because in my opinion the only way that I will be able to heal my cysts and lose weight forever is to deal with the emotional part of my weight loss. Iím sorry if I went on and on in this post. I hope I was able to help you feel a little hopeful .
Ok so today I went for my third ultrasound ever since being diagnosed (07-08). You would think by now I can control my emotions. I went alone for one! So as the nurse was performing the transvaginal ultrasound the feeling of tears started. Then when I got home and looked at the copies of my pictures the emotional wreck began.
I can't stand looking at my ovaries plus I've been diagnosed with prediabetes and high cholesterol (apart of pcos) and get this....i'm only 24! Oh well I just thought I would come to pour my miserable heart out to you all.
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