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2/27/14 3:08 A

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The honesty on this team is really helpful. Thank God we aren't alone.
I don't believe an addiction is a weakness, nor is talking about how it affects us. If I had the answer to your question of why the strange relating to food we would both be millionaires! :)
I tell myself some things just are and try to work with what is instead of spending time trying to figure it out. I do have times when I don't do this perfectly. It really is about progress, not perfection. I'm not where I want to be but I'm also not where I used to be! I get in the most trouble when I try to take more than baby steps in changing. I have to remember that there is a part of me that likes familiarity and doesn't want to change. Mostly, I am motivated. I have to choose every day whether I will feed the dog that likes familiarity or the dog that's changing. Some days the last dog wins and other days the first one bites me. The overall aim for me is for more days of change. Sometimes it's 5 minutes at a time, not one day, but the 5 minutes add up. It helps me a lot to have the junk out of the house and to plan my meals a day ahead so I am not thinking of food. A good tip I got off this site is that if I open the refrigerator or pantry and stand there looking for something randomly, I am probably thirsty, not hungry. Upping my water and fluid intake makes a difference in my level of cravings. It also helps to have a hot beverage like tea prior to eating my evening meal. I read a lot at night because if I don't stay occupied, my brain diverts to food thoughts. I also find that going to bed late triggers cravings, so have set an earlier bed time most nights. That said, I'm going to bed! Good luck and I'm sitting on your shoulder saying: emoticon

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2/26/14 11:22 A

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I've just read all of your comments from the beginning of this discussion. I'm impressed with your honesty...all of you. It made me realize that I'm not even that honest with myself. I've done so much better than before I came back to SparkPeople THIS time, but at night I cheat. I cheat a lot sometimes. Last night, I went from a few goji berries covered in dark chocolate which I actually had budgeted to a snicker squared. I came home from work knowing how many calories I had left in my day, and planned a salad with a piece of chicken. I ended up having two pieces of chicken, ranch beans, and a salad big enough to be the meal. I wasn't starving so that isn't my excuse. I really don't have one. It's like the food is in front of me, so I think I have to have as much as possible quickly before it disappears or someone stops me! What's up with that? No one told me to lose weight. No one criticizes what I eat, except maybe my sister in a subtle way. She's my conscience sometimes. If I could skip the hours of 6pm-10pm I could be slim. I've bruised the tendon on the bottom of my foot, so that has stalled my treadmill plans. All of this whining I'm doing makes me feel like a weak wimp. Geez! I need help!

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2/4/14 2:38 A

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I can relate. Recently I have been planning my meals in the SP nutrition tracker a day ahead. That way when I get up in the morning I don't have to think about food but rather can begin to prepare the food planned for breakfast. I don't deviate often from what is preplanned because that gets me thinking about food again. Somehow, by doing that, the obsession/compulsion, whatever you want to call it leaves me for the day. Not that I don't get cravings, it just makes it easy to tell myself my food is all taken care of and to move on to something else. I use a lot of soothing, positive self-talk because the little girl in me didn't have enough food to eat growing up and I sometimes need to reassure that scared kid that we will eat today. I just no longer have to prove it to her all day long! emoticon
My daughter had the hurting stomach cravings when she had an untreated overactive thyroid condition. My thyroid bounces and when it's overactive I am actually stomach achingly hungry fairly soon after I eat. If you haven't had a good physical, might I suggest one?
If it helps any, I have been in your shoes and you won't be there forever if you keep reaching out and also try some of the ideas on this forum and on SP. We don't have to do this alone anymore. emoticon


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5/2/13 9:46 P

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i hear what a lot of people are saying on this thread. it's a very hard thing to deal with, food addiction, because you have to eat every day. you can't give it up and it is IN YOUR FACE all the time the things you need to avoid, or just eat less of.

also, i know that feeling of wanting to eat until you are seriously full. i don't know where that comes from, but it's totally a weird thing. i think it's kind of a food insecurity with me, growing up we always had enough food in the house, but money was always a concern, so i get anxious if i'm not sure what the next meal will be.

it's a scary thing because you can' t really talk about it all the time. even though it might be on your mind all the time. people will just tell you, well it's in your head, get it under control. but it's hard to just do that like magic.

p.s. i also get obsessive about a particular food item and can't stop until i get it.

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I feel like I cannot do anything. I did eat lunch, but something possibly the depression had started right after the late lunch.

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2/24/12 8:25 P

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Well, I don't know what happened, but I screwed up so bad today! I did really well yesterday and kept my calories almost within range. Today, it was as if I couldn't control myself and was a junkie caught up in the most intoxicating moment. I'm terribly embarrassed, but I have no other outlets. So, today started out with a Hostess mini donut my daughter didn't eat, so of course I didn't want to throw it away. Then I thought, I can choose to correct that indiscretion and eat right the rest of the day. I had 2 scrambled eggs and a rice cake with a glass of skim milk for my breakfast. Then about 6 pieces of butterscotch during a work meeting. Lunch time came and I was starving. I went to Mcdonald's and ordered a large sweet tea, Mcdouble and small FF. I pigged out in my car while driving, already deciding I wanted more food. I passed by Dunkin Donuts and had to stop. I ordered 2 cream filled donuts, then drove across the street to another Mcdonald's and ordered another Mcdouble and small FF. I took all this back to work, since I had already finished the first McDs order. I snacked on all this during the remainder of the day along with about half a bag of tostado chips with salsa. I hurt so bad, yet when I got home, fully prepared to skip dinner, my husband had cooked mac and cheese and sloppy joes. I had to get some of the mac and cheese and made a sloppy joe to go with it. I ate and felt even worse after that. Even now, 2 hours later, I can barely breathe and hate myself so much for what I've done today. Why does this happen to me some days? How can I control this? It seems when I think about dieting and doing right, I get even more out of control. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one, but it still does not make this seem right. I know I'm not healthy anymore and have a daily fear of falling over dead of a heart attack or stroke, yet I cannot stop this behavior. Sometimes when I get cravings such as the Mcdouble and french fries and I start eating, I get an almost orgasmic feeling. I need help!!!

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9/25/11 10:21 P

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Use this opportunity to change your mind set. You can do it and you're worth it. Small steps/ small goals. When we set small goals and reach them we feel rewarded that we can actually do something. Unlike that usual feeling of being a failure. For example my small goals I set week. This week I want to carry my lunch to work all week. Usually I either don't bring my lunch or I allow others to talk me into going out for lunch with them when I brought my lunch. So as simple as it may sound I know its a challenge for me and when Friday comes and I can look back and see that I ate what I brought will make me feel so good and I will feel a little stronger. Set a small goal for yourself this week and see how you do. Good Luck.

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Hi Vivien,
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My addiction to food is/was a means to self soothe, forget, numb. I would spend most of the day planning what I was going to eat that night and then going out to buy it. I would obsess over this and if I didn't have a certain food item I'd get extremely uncomfortable and obsess over how I'd get it. It's a vicious circle.

There's no easy answer.

I've spent years in therapy learning different ways to cope that don't involve food.

It's interesting because the year and a half I've been out of therapy, I've gained 50 lbs. emoticon

I think it's time I started again! I've only been eating clean for two weeks and I find I have to keep busy and not let myself get hungry. I've also told myself, this is it. No more turning to food. I have been blessed with strong willpower and once I set my mind to something, I do it.

My suggestion would be to work with someone (therapist or group therapy) to determine to learn coping techniques. Maybe join a support group such as Overeaters Anon? And, keep busy!!!

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You're all right about taking one small after another one but stilll... I feel like I can't stop myself eating and eating until I really overeat :(. It's like I want to feel stuffed even I know it' wrong for me and that I will feel really bad and guilty afterwards. It's like being clearly addicted to suggary or fatty things. Does it do the same thing for you? Any tips to fight it and be healthier :(... ?

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5/17/11 9:24 P

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We definately need to take things one day at a time becuase unlike other addictions we can't go cold turkey. We need food to survive so the challenge is and always will be building a healthy relationship with food and working everyday to maintain that relationship. I guess you can compare it to a marriage or any relationship..... it takes conscious work, everyday to keep it healthy.
Just like Sharmika04 mentioned, finding ways to occupy the mouth and calm the belly are great tools.
It was a hard reality to me to face and one I still don't like, but........it is what it is. This is something we can never truely recover from in the sense of it going away. It's something that we need to control/take control over.
We are all here for you..you are not alone.

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5/17/11 12:03 A

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@mommadags I like that. Taking it one day at a time. I still somewhat do not even know where to start. I want to get better at not over eating or feeling hungry myself. Chewing gum does help me and string cheese for a quick eat to get my tummy to stop making funny noises.

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5/14/11 10:08 A

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I agree with Holly, we don't need to be good all the time and we can't and will never get out of our cycle of eating if we expect that we will be. I don't know about you, but when I get off track and binge it throws me into a cycle of eating because I feel guilty and then say I've already blown it so why not 'enjoy it'.
so far the only thing that has helped me is tracking my food. It holds me accountable. In the past I have avoided tracking on days where i have binged, but have asked my husband(who is very supportive) to encourage me to especially track on those days. I'm hoping that seeing how far off my numbers are when I binge will help. Just started this new approach, so I'll let you know. Good luck and we are here to support you. We can do this, no step, one meal and one day at a time.

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You do not have to be good all the time just most (about 90%). The thing that really helped me the most was new friends that wanted to know why I was not at water aerobics. They never pushed hard just never gave up.
The journey no matter your goals is not easy. Just take one day at a time. Start with small steps. I went to 2% cheese do not like free or light mayo.
For me vitamins and minerals for health reasons is just as important as calories to keep on an even path. I will eat uncontrollably to find what was missing so tracking may take time but it is worth it.
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I am 5'4" and 260lbs. I have never been able to stay on track more than a day or two. I have been an overeater sine I was a teen and I don't know how to overcome my addiction. I need help. I eat on a notion and when I tried the six meal a day thing I only found myself waiting for the next meal. I truely feel like I'm hungry. My stomach begins to hurt and I feel like I haven't eaten all day even though it may have only been an hour. Please help!

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