I often think the same thing. I will often sit and think about my stash, is it big enough? is it varied enough? when will i find time to look at it? i HOPE MY HUSBAND SLEEPS ON THE COUCH SO i AM UNINTERUPPTED IN MY gorge.
Everyday and every min, all I can do is keep the thoughts sliding through. not pay attention to them, if I listen, they get me.
current weight: 218.0
Fitness Minutes: (8,165) Posts: 5,320 7/29/12 8:33 P
Your comments made me laugh. I too passed a time when I HATED this eating disorder with a passion. But sadly,that did not make it go away. I have learned to accept it and work with it. Loving myself and relying on God more is also helping me alot. This team is a Godsent. It has helped me very much not hate myself and it feels great to know that I am not alone-or not crazy. Getting binge eating under control is a process and we just can't rush it-no matter how much we want to. It took me years,but finally, it's getting better. You'll get there!
current weight: 171.4
Fitness Minutes: (180) Posts: 143 7/29/12 8:25 P
I know, Celeste, me too. I read your blog and you're right all we can do is start over. Don't beat yourself up over one binge you'll get through this. I;m a night eater myself who suffers from anxiety and sleep problems. You'll pull through and be ok.
A women's clothes should fit tightly enough to show that she is a woman but loosely enough to show that she is a lady--Marilyn Monroe
current weight: 218.0
Fitness Minutes: (180) Posts: 143 7/29/12 2:39 A
You know, I really hate that we struggle with this. I hate that I feel so out of control with it. I hate that I can't walk through a store and NOT look at the junk food. I hate that I seem to purposely choose these horrible foods knowing how it'll make me feel both physically and emotionally.
And because I do this, I have no one to blame for my weight but myself. I have no right to complain about it... :(
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