Thank you for being honest! I love that you just came out and said this. I'm addicted to sugar, and carbs run a close second. Unfortunately, I am also an emotional eater, and when I am sad, I shovel food in and don't stop until I am out of food or I am too sick to eat another bite.
I am a food addict. And yes, that is a real thing. Now that I am more in tune with my body, I can actually feel a chemical change when binge. I partied a LOT when I was younger, and binge eating causes a wave to wash over me that is hard to describe, but it reminds me of that feeling of drunkenness that alcohol would cause in my partying days. I didn't quit drinking because I wanted to--I actually just kind of grew out of it. Nowadays I don't like to drink too much because of how it makes me feel the next day. I'm in a different phase of my life.
If you've ever watched Intervention, you know that most drug addicts don't quit because they want to quit--they quit because of what drugs do to their lives. And that is exactly why I want to stop binge eating. I feel like it is ruining my life. I desire to live a different life. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and being ashamed of my appearance. I'm tired of looking like a sausage that is packed a little too tightly, and looking pregnant even though I'm not. There are repercussions to binging, and I don't like the repercussions. So I am struggling to give up the binge. I don't see myself ever growing out of it like I did the partying, so I just have to find a way to give it up. I WANT to quit. That's the difference between you and me.
I don't have a magic answer to your question. I just wanted to respond because it is really great to see someone come right out and admit something that is considered so taboo. And I do agree with Sparklise that you are not ready yet. You just have to get to a point where you want to quit. Unless and until you either grow tired of binging or you find something that you love more, you probably won't quit. And honestly, I think that's OK. Life is short, and I think that you need to be true to yourself. If you really find your true happiness in binging, then I hope that you work out hard enough to keep yourself healthy while doing it. Just be honest with yourself. Make sure that it is the binge that you love. Make sure it's not the feeling that you get from the sugar and/or carbs. (And if it is the feeling, then I can tell you that I get the same rush from spinning, only it's a bigger version of the same chemical rush.)
BLC 18: Golden Phoenix
"Don't get fancy, just get dancy."--Pink
" I promise you one thing, a lot of good will come out of this. You will never see any player in the entire country play as hard as I will play the rest of the season. You will never see someone push the rest of the team as hard as I will push everybody the rest of the season. You will never see a team play harder than we will the rest of the season. God bless."~ Tim Tebow
| Pounds lost: 9.5