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Well, I buy the food because other people want it.
When i'm not in binge mode,the food is safe.
When i'm in binge mode,nothing is safe and it does not matter what food is there or not there.
I buy the food because my husband's uncle asks me to buy him that, but whoever wants some eats some. Just like he can eat whatever else I buy even if it's not directly "just for him". He does not drive so he can't go buy it himself and he pays room and board,so I buy what he wants.
I used to buy ice cream for others in the house(supposedly for my daughter),but I was the only one that ate it.
Then my daughter pointed out to me that she did not want any because it's not healthy,so I stopped kidding myself and I do not buy it anymore.
Binging is not about avoid food all the time,it's about making peace with emotions and food.
Thank you for your response!
I'm curious if you eat the junk food you buy for "others" & why you would choose to do that? I know the "usual answers", but I'm looking for something deeper....nearer to the core of the need to have that stuff in the house. Have you ever "not bought any?" Instead, deciding only to purchase healthy foods. Getting control of compulsive eating is a great challenge & one that can change your life in many ways. It's important to set the plan & execute it. This is coming from one of the worst compulsive/emotional & secret eaters you will ever meet. I do know what can happen if this isn't addressed. You can address it "ONLY" for you....so that is a choice. I've read your page & honor your goals. You can get to them, but things will have to change. If not, your desires will remain wishes & to me, that is one of the saddest things I experienced for myself. I spent decades wishing....& missing out on achieving a healthy body & all the enjoyment that came from learning the special discipline that comes from that level of maturity. Yes, it's a life journey, but one worth taking.
I am not at the point where I won't buy junk food for the people who want it in my house.
I often look in my cart and think of what should not be in there.
Hopefully,one day I'll get an A+ also.
I've been challenging myself in the supermarket for many years. It really helps. Yesterday I got an A+ & that was exceptional because right now I'm going through some very major stress. I don't like chatting stress on the boards, but leave it to say it falls in the very high levels & is not under my control. Well anyway, this is about the shopping cart.
I do like to shop from a list, but I will add things to the cart if they fall into my healthy category. Nothing with sugar or processed goes into an A+ cart. Years ago, when I would do my final cart check before getting into line, I would have to take out a few items. That was often embarrassing because I had to walk them back to where they lived on the shelves.
The second part of the "game" is to look into carts of other people & give them a "grade." OH OH....unfortunately most fail. Then, I look at the person pushing the cart & visualize disease-states that those foods lead to & then...I image their families. Sometimes I'll image their body parts screaming out... As you can see, the game can get quite involved.
Here's the thing. Each time I do this, I'm programming my subconscious mind for change. I'm making it clear about what I choose for me & mine....& what I don't. Now, you might wonder, what about other family members who may want or need something different from my choices. If that is the case, I will buy it as long as it isn't junk. But, I put it in a special corner of the cart, so that doesn't count for me. I simply won't buy junk for anyone.
Also, I make an effort to only shop once a week & start off in the produce department. I get extra points for that. ;-))