I made it through yesterday without doing my normal self-destructive "Eat-a-thon." I do fine up until I eat lunch and then I go nuts! It's like I can't stop eating once I start. I'll eat something and immediately want something else, so I get something else and then I want something else............and on and on it goes, sometimes clear up to dinner time! I know it is crazy and I am ashamed and disgusted when I do this but I don't know how to stop this behavior. Yesterday was the first time in quite a while that I didn't repeat this pattern but I made a very concentrated effort not to do it - and it was painful. By dinner I was over the pain
. Both myself and DH have been sick for the last week so I didn't go to the pool and do water exercise (which I have been doing almost every day since Jan.). Being stuck in the house started the Eat-a-thon going again. You can't eat in the pool so it's a good place for me to be. But, come on, we all know there are times when you have to be in places where you can eat, so while putting myself in a "safe" place like the pool works for me, I need to get to the point where I can be around food and not have to eat it. I guess what I'm feeling is total disgust with myself - I feel like some kind of possessed eating machine - and I'm wondering if anyone else goes through this kind of thing.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He wlll make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
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