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I know exactly what you are talking about. I can eat the small piece of steak, and the salad, and a little broccoli, and that is what I need, but sometimes, my body, or rather my head is screaming more...more..more...and today...I had...a huge salad, a little steak, 5 pieces of sweet potato fries, 3 pieces of broccoli and one peanut butter and chocolate cream cake all for 12.99 at TGIF...and I thought I was doing good. Look at all the left overs, I have two meals, and it cost me 6.00 a meal. and then when I get on the scale tomorrow it will be up one pound. So, for that one hour of sitting, and eating..anything I wanted, I will take a long time, since I have a broken hip, to get that one pound off. I used to just walk 10 extra blocks a night, a luxury I do not have right now. I have balanced for 3 years, the extra calories and sugar with the extra water and exercise, so I could "splurge when I wanted". It took a long time, to see what I could eat and when it , the weight came off again. I have an insulin inbalance, so sugar is really really bad for me. So, I try to keep it below 4 grams per day. That piece of cake...at least 50 grams of sugar. I will be sleepy for the rest of the day. The scale will be higher, but I do not want cake again for at least 3 months. (I told myself it was my birthday cake)..April 5th...it was. So, I do not really crave cake anymore. But, I wanted that one...sometimes, we have to give in a little bit, just to be "nice" to the brain...you know? But, then you get back on track, and eat the good stuff. I learned just failing a little, does not make you bad or a failure, it is just a lesson, in what to eat, and how long it takes, to take that "piece of cake" off again.
I don't know what it feels like to be hungry anymore. When I try to eat regular substantial meals (around 300-500 calories), part of me feels full, but then another part of me feels EXTREMELY unsatisfied, to the point where it feels like my body is yelling at me or something.
I tried to ignore it for the longest time, but it didn't go away. Just to see what would happen I just let myself eat how much I wanted, when I wanted. It wasn't pretty!
I ended up eating until my stomach ACHED, at least once a day. Even when I ate to that point, the hunger pangs were still there, or sometimes even worse.
It's getting to the point where I'm really sick of food, I just don't want to think about it anymore!
That's stupid to say I need to stop eating.. But I feel like I don't know what else to do. To me it's more comfortable to feel slightly hungry while not eating, than to eat, and right afterwards feel so hungry I feel like my body is under pain.
Does anyone have any similar experiences? What would be the cause of something like this?