First of all, I'd just like to say how much I really love your name. That has to be one of the most beautiful names I've ever heard.
I completely understand how you feel about the weight gain. I, too, am greatly discouraged by the fact that I gained 15 lbs. over the holidays, though, honestly...I'm pleasantly surprised that it wasn't WAY more than that.
One of the most important things you can learn to do is to forgive yourself. I learned the hard way that beating myself up over my slip-ups only made it that much harder and take that much longer for me to get back on track.
There are so many wonderful people on this team & this site, and I am so glad that you opened up about how you're feeling. One of my downfalls is that I don't reach out...even when I have all of this wonderful support on SparkPeople, I tend to shy away from it...and I'm definitely paying the price for that now.
Whatever you do, please don't give up on yourself. You are worth it, and you will make it. I will make it. The only way we won't is if we throw in the towel & quit trying.
I am sorry that you're experiencing problems in your marraige, and I will pray it gets better for you. Relationships are tough, but they can be worth the trouble.
I hope the sun begins to shine on you soon and that the clouds of doubt lift...and show you all that you are capable of acheiving! Hugs~Mary
***Quit Smoking July 25, 2009***
"We can do anything we want to do if we stick to it long enough."~Helen Keller
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