Happy Gluten Free Holidays!
This time last year I had been carrying colds back to back for the longest stretch of my whole life, culminating in chronic prednisone use to (almost) control asthma, bronchitis, pneumonia. And depression that persisted despite every last effort. I had to stay home from work, and what's worse, my kids were chronically sick and unhappy, too. I've never been a heavy person, except during pregnancy, but the environmental allergens of our new home in the Pacific Northwest were beating down this desert rat! On prednisone, "blowing up" is what I should say...
Suddenly it seemed everyone was telling me to try a Naturopath. I had never been to one, but was so desperate, I went. She listened to my whole history for a long time, and then prescribed this diet:
no soy (I'm allergic)
It sounded really hard to do. First thing I did when I got home was cry. Then I took out some paper and a pen and looked through my pantry and fridge and wrote down all the foods I COULD eat. There were only two or three. Corn tortillas, fake crab (monkfish,) onions, spinach. So I whipped up a little funky taco and set my mind and body to really go for it. I went to the grocery store and bought more foods that I could eat: poultry, fish, shellfish, rice, ANY vegetable (except for a few that I react to.) When my husband got home, I explained the diet. He was, of course, hesitant that I would be able to pull it off. It was never a consideration that he or the rest of the family would eat like me. So, I just cooked for them and a little off to the side for myself. I trained my mind to not even think about cheating. I had been off cigarettes for 7 years, so I knew a lot about falling off the wagon and how to get myself around that.
WITHIN A DAY, I FELT DIFFERENT. WITHIN 2 DAYS, MY DIGESTIVE SYSTEM WAS HEALING. WITHIN A WEEK, MY EMOTIONS AND ENERGY LEVEL WERE SIGNIFICANTLY LIFTED. WITHIN TWO WEEKS, I COULD ACTUALLY EXERCISE (WALK.)
This is how the tides turned for me. Once the cycle of happiness, invigoration, and exercise started to take hold, I could really sit down to my plate of food specially prepared with devotion for that special someone that I love with all my heart--ME--and I could bring that devotion into my body and feel so nurtured and grateful. Oh my God, I could do such a simple thing for myself!
It took me a month before I could go to even one little party where food was served. I did make myself go to church, but the coffee session afterwards--which had always been my favorite, most social part of the day--was awful because the people who cared about me (whom I care very much about) would notice I was just sitting there with a mug of hot water with lemon or peppermint tea. They would ply me with all these LUSCIOUS baked treats that they make with love, and I would have to be the NO THANK YOU lady. And they would want to know why, and then I would find myself kind of dumped out and scattered and really struggling to feel connected.
People pick up on that, and then they (with totally beautiful intentions of adoration) go and make your most favorite dessert in the whole world, and then bring it to you and then what do you do? It was made especially for you.... Well... Here I am, on my 3rd of 4th month of saying NO to all this, building a brand new life for myself. Precious momentum. Can I abandon all of that to please this person I care about? If I do, I open the door and then will be tempted over and over. YES!!! I SAY NO. It is perfectly okay to say no. Even if the other person feels "bad" about it. It's okay to do what is best for you. (I guess this last paragraph is me talking to myself.)
But I would say the extreme awkwardness and embarrassment slowly dissipated around four months. Somewhere around that time, I was no longer overweight, or needing asthma medication--except for my inhalers--and had become involved in team sports again. It had been about 12 years since I had done that, and I had forgotten how important sport is to me. The minute I got back into it, I found myself. I found the person that had been lost. Gosh, I like to hang out with her...she's a blast.
So, I'm still on this elimination diet, mostly because this indoor season feels like the wrong time to start challenging my digestive system again. Going to these public indoor Christmas functions has me catching stuff a bit, and I just need to stay quiet, inside and out. Food is boring, exept maybe once a week or so, I invent some new kind of soup or sauce that thrills me. Usually I am the only one that eats it, but you know, I kinda like the privacy of that. Purity. Once I found myself athletically (no--I don't mean I'm some great athlete--I mean that I get HIGH when I exercise)then somehow I guess my loved ones could sense a kind of cohesion and I suppose it stopped occuring to them to offer me stuff I can't have. They just let me do my thing.
So you asked for a story. LOL Here I have had to abbreviate mine considerably Ha, ha! But I know inside and out that Dr. Black sent me on a path (Naturopath) that is truly healing in the most hollistic way because the unbalanced social, psychological, spiritual, mental, and physical ways that I handled life are dynamically on the mend.
My Rules of Thumb:
1. Ate sugar? Don't. If it's sweet, don't eat. If you do, you'll have the taste in your mouth for 3 days. Only 3 days. Not a fun 3 days, because you have to keep saying no throughout those 3 days. If you make it to the 4th day, the taste for sweets goes away. Just don't start up again, not even a bite.
2. Stay away from food that other people make (especially restaurants.) It's just too hard. If gluten is your only no-no, then maybe it's easier for you to find places to go where folks will make sure you don't get any gluten.
3. IT IS SO WORTH IT!!!! TRY IT; IF IT'S THE RIGHT THING FOR YOU, YOU WILL FEEL SO FANTASTIC, YOU'LL NEVER WANT TO GO BACK.
4. If people go into sympathy spirals, and these emotions flying all around you get you stirred up, stay away. Nibble slowly away at how to handle that. I think eating is one of the most complex social rituals. Changes to the ritual have to happen suddenly for some individuals, but the group can need quite a long time before they accept and support the change. Hopefully you are less sensitive to what other people think and feel.
I'm so happy you asked! Stop by for a cup of tea any time you like! Good Luck! (And, what's your story?!)
Edited by: OTTERDOTTER at: 12/23/2007 (14:00)
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