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I am here because I needed tools/assistance to learn to lead a healthier lifestyle and be the best I can be for my children and future grandchildren. I struggled to succeed on my own. Many times I would reach a goal only to see myself take steps backward in life. Now 5 years later I am maintaining, making healthy choices, but more importantly, I am happy with who I am!
Why am I here, well I want my life back. I am morbidly obese, acceptable way of saying I am FAT. I weigh 274 lbs and no one to blame but myself. I ate my emotions and hide from reality. I am looking 40 right in the face, saw pictures from my 20 year class reunion, I notice my size 24 jeans getting to tight and started thinking about my mom and how much I miss her, she was 43 in good health and died of a massive heart attack. That's when what I had done was like a ton of bricks hitting me.
My daughters are 12 & 9. I don't and will not leave them with out their mother because I was being lazy. I was not taking care of my self. I encourage them to be the best they can and to grab life by the horns and yet I am sitting on the couch eatting half gallon of ice cream.
What did I do, throw out the couch, started walking and finally got a gym membership. No the gym membership is not required, but I hate to waste money. So I am paying for it which means I am going to use it. Cleaned out the cupboards and all the sweet junk. I will be here to play with my grandchildren and God willing my great grandchildren.
Edited by: KCEMMOMMA at: 2/10/2014 (10:57)
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ¯ Maya Angelou
We all have joined SP for different reasons. Yes, we all want to lose weight but I am interested in why. Did something big happen to spur this decision? Like being diagnosed as a diabetic? Are you just tired of being overweight? Do you have someone inspiring you? I think we can all be more helpful to one another if we know what is driving you in the weight loss arena and what we can do to specifically help. Only people who are now or who have been overweight can understand what you are dealing with. When I was on this site many years ago this team was extremely supportive to one another and I hope we can get back to that!
I am here because I feel like a bad role model to my children. The message I send them daily is incongruent. On the one hand, I exercise a lot and always have. I have coached my daughters' soccer team (s) for years. They go with me to the gym regularly and are all very athletic. Sounds great doesn't it? I guess in one way it is. They will probably all be life long exercisers because of me and for that I am grateful.
HOWEVER........I am fat. Not pleasantly plump, not mildly obese, FAT. It took me a long time to be able to say that word out loud but I can and I do. I am going to call it like I see it. Pretending I am not hasn't gotten me anywhere. My addictions to sweets has spilled over to two out of my four children and for that I feel guilt. If my older daughter wasn't so athletic and involved in basketball she would probably be leaning towards being obese herself. My husband and I are both good cooks and I used to bake a lot so my kids were exposed to a lot of foods which is good. They were also exposed to a lot of baked sweets which is bad. My goal now is to change how we eat and to teach my children not to eat when they are not hungry. I think that is probably the worst habit overall.
So that is why I am here. Of course I would love to look on the outside like I feel on the inside-who wouldn't? But truthfully, my biggest motivators are 21, 15, 14 and 8. Kids learn by example and I want to be the best example they could ask for!!!
So.... how about you? Why are you here?
Heal yourself first, then give to others