So, why am I here - from the goals/results angle...
In terms of the scale, I want to go from my used to be weight of 285# to my goal weight of 159#.
Medically, I want to get off all the meds and supplements and be free of the CPAP machine.
Mentally, I want to develop better habits for handling stress. I never want to forget that if hunger isn't the problem, then food is not the solution.
Physically, I want to be able to participate in more activities. I have 2 sisters with breast cancer, and I can't even do the walk with them.
Emotionally, I want to feel victorious. -- not in a competitive, better than someone else way, just in an "I can do this" way. And it's not a one time task to check off my chore list. I want to experience a new, healthy, invigorating, satisfying way of life. So victorious isn't quite an accurate word. I want to feel a sense of accomplishment, but not the kind where you rest on your laurels. I want to feel connected.
So, here I am, on SparkPeople, learning all kinds of ways to reach these goals and get the results.
Thanks for letting me process those thoughts "out loud."
I'm here for a lot of reasons - a lot of reasons that all boil down to: I need help to get healthy.
One contributing factor was my sister losing 74 pounds on Weight Watchers. I emailed her (because it was late at night and I didn't want to wait for a "decent" hour) and asked her to tell me about it. She called the next day, and we talked for quite awhile. Nothing she said really made me think "Yeah, WW is the way to go!" It worked for her and she's been on maintenance for about a year and a half now, so it must be a program that works, but nothing in our talk really grabbed me. However, she did say, "Start right now, today, as soon as we hang up; track ALL the food you eat and drinks you have." I think she meant pen and paper track, but I Googled something along the lines of "calorie tracker." In the results was a magazine article filled with weight loss success stories. Some of the victors mentioned Spark People. I Googled that; here I am.
One contributing factor was getting a new phone. I got my first "smart" phone - one with a giant screen.... one where I could actually see pictures.... pictures of myself at 285 pounds! Somehow the camera and screen on that phone don't show what I deluded myself into seeing in the mirror everyday. The phone was brutally accurate, so here I am.
One factor was that after a few months on one Metformin a day, my A1C wasn't coming down like the doctor hoped, so she doubled my dose. Being prescribed Metformin somehow didn't pierce my bubble of denial. Doubling the dose at my very next re-check got my attention. Every healthcare person I've crossed paths with for the past twenty years has been telling me "watch what you eat" or some variation of it. Yeah, I "watched what I ate." I watched gallons of ice cream disappear - and loaves of bread and plates of pasta... No one had ever said, "Start right now, today, as soon as you walk out that door and write down everything...." But this doctor said, "I'm going to double your dose...," so here I am.
I could go on, but it's way past bedtime. I have a feeling the next chance I get to do some writing in my journal there will be a couple of pages dedicated to this subject. Thanks for the catalyst!
P.S. I just re-read the opening post in this thread, and I think she was looking for "why" in terms of what do you want to accomplish. She wants to be a better role model for her kids. I could go on for ten more paragraphs on what I want to get out of this experience. Those all boil down to getting healthy and being secure.
Edited by: BIRDWALK at: 10/1/2015 (03:31)
Small changes, one at a time, stack 'em up!
current weight: 260.6
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I originally joined SP back in 2008 and returned 3 months ago because of a recent osteoporosis diagnosis. I'm praying and hoping that my new level of activity and healthy eating will turn things around.
~~Paula Jean from central Iowa~~ "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9
I am here because I feel like crap and I am tired of it. I am tired of being tired, and running out of breath after walking a few steps. I have always enjoyed being outside and traveling, but now it is just too difficult. I am in my early 50's and some days I feel like I am 80. I am overweight and out of shape and I want to be able to enjoy doing the things I love again. In addition I have a strong family history of both diabetes and osteoporosis and I know if I don't get this in control quickly I am going to be in much worse shape quickly. But I have tried to address this before, even here on Spark, and not stuck with it. So I really need help with how to keep it going and make it work in everyday life. I was hoping when I saw the Des Moines team to find some local support.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phil 4:13
current weight: 177.0
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I am here because I needed tools/assistance to learn to lead a healthier lifestyle and be the best I can be for my children and future grandchildren. I struggled to succeed on my own. Many times I would reach a goal only to see myself take steps backward in life. Now 5 years later I am maintaining, making healthy choices, but more importantly, I am happy with who I am!
Why am I here, well I want my life back. I am morbidly obese, acceptable way of saying I am FAT. I weigh 274 lbs and no one to blame but myself. I ate my emotions and hide from reality. I am looking 40 right in the face, saw pictures from my 20 year class reunion, I notice my size 24 jeans getting to tight and started thinking about my mom and how much I miss her, she was 43 in good health and died of a massive heart attack. That's when what I had done was like a ton of bricks hitting me.
My daughters are 12 & 9. I don't and will not leave them with out their mother because I was being lazy. I was not taking care of my self. I encourage them to be the best they can and to grab life by the horns and yet I am sitting on the couch eatting half gallon of ice cream.
What did I do, throw out the couch, started walking and finally got a gym membership. No the gym membership is not required, but I hate to waste money. So I am paying for it which means I am going to use it. Cleaned out the cupboards and all the sweet junk. I will be here to play with my grandchildren and God willing my great grandchildren.
Edited by: KCEMMOMMA at: 2/10/2014 (10:57)
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ¯ Maya Angelou
Pounds lost: 30.0
Fitness Minutes: (5,490) Posts: 85 4/10/13 9:13 A
We all have joined SP for different reasons. Yes, we all want to lose weight but I am interested in why. Did something big happen to spur this decision? Like being diagnosed as a diabetic? Are you just tired of being overweight? Do you have someone inspiring you? I think we can all be more helpful to one another if we know what is driving you in the weight loss arena and what we can do to specifically help. Only people who are now or who have been overweight can understand what you are dealing with. When I was on this site many years ago this team was extremely supportive to one another and I hope we can get back to that!
I am here because I feel like a bad role model to my children. The message I send them daily is incongruent. On the one hand, I exercise a lot and always have. I have coached my daughters' soccer team (s) for years. They go with me to the gym regularly and are all very athletic. Sounds great doesn't it? I guess in one way it is. They will probably all be life long exercisers because of me and for that I am grateful.
HOWEVER........I am fat. Not pleasantly plump, not mildly obese, FAT. It took me a long time to be able to say that word out loud but I can and I do. I am going to call it like I see it. Pretending I am not hasn't gotten me anywhere. My addictions to sweets has spilled over to two out of my four children and for that I feel guilt. If my older daughter wasn't so athletic and involved in basketball she would probably be leaning towards being obese herself. My husband and I are both good cooks and I used to bake a lot so my kids were exposed to a lot of foods which is good. They were also exposed to a lot of baked sweets which is bad. My goal now is to change how we eat and to teach my children not to eat when they are not hungry. I think that is probably the worst habit overall.
So that is why I am here. Of course I would love to look on the outside like I feel on the inside-who wouldn't? But truthfully, my biggest motivators are 21, 15, 14 and 8. Kids learn by example and I want to be the best example they could ask for!!!
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