As for me, I shy away from all beaches, pools, and social scenes. I haven't come to terms with my extra weight since it was aool put on within the last 2 years. My Prescription medications have alot to do with that! But I "FEEL" ugly! I volunteer at Holy Cross Hospital & get surprised when someone pays me a compliment as to how nice I am or how good a worker I am or Glad to have you on our team, etc. I equate fatness & out=-of-shape with ugliness & therefore why would anyone "like" me? I don't fit the mold. WEspecially down here in SE FLA! Where the rich & famous are to be seen all about town, I don;t even go to any of my pools (there are 3) in my complex due to my weight, And it's right on the Intercoastal where the boats go by. So beautiful. But I'm not, so I stay inside & sleep all day after I get home from work. Never gonna get thin doing it that way! But my theory is as long as I'm still on the medication I am fighting a losing battle. So why try & fight against something that I already know is harming me? But I can't go off the meds either, (they're psych meds for mania). So I'm stuck like a pig with an apple in my mouth.
But, when we can afford to buy me a bike at the pawn shop I will get on it & begin a slow return to good health by riding by myself where noone knows me on the road & it doesn't matter if I'm fat!!!
| current weight: 67.0 over