to the Team!
I'm so sorry that you are feeling so frustrated and like a bad mother right now. What an awful way to be feeling. My heart goes out to you, as I well know that feeling!
My good friend also struggles in this area and in the same way - her dh spends while she struggles to make ends meet. Are you a praying person? Have you given your struggles to your God? (I will certainly pray for you if you wish)
I'm afraid I don't have any suggestions except to speak with your dh honestly and openly (not when a problem with the money arises, but when you are both calm and loving towards each other). He needs to know your frustration and feeling of failure. He may be unable to curb his habits, though.
Perhaps some of the other members have been through similar things and can help?
I also think Sparkguy has a Team related to this, does he not? Or there may be other ones as well.
All the best to you.
The smallest good deed is better than the grandest intention.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
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