I know I'm struggling with this to the point where it's NOT good for me, but I know that putting it out there will help.
I'm still terrified of upping my calories into a maintenance range. I'm so afraid that either: A) it will "break the spell" and I'll start the slow creep back up to obesity, or B) I will fall back into binge eating, filling up on unhealthy junk, etc.
Here's what I'm doing now: I'm making myself eat at least 400 calories per meal, plus a 200-300 calorie snack per day. I'm doing this by adding milk back in at breakfast, adding a TBSP of flaxseed oil at lunch (because I honestly feel too full to add more bulk in, if that makes sense....but a TBSP of flaxseed oil has 140 calories, so it's easy to get it in), and enough extra of whatever we're having at dinner to meet my goal. My snack is my treat, hot chocolate and either cookies or Hershey's Kisses (I count the calories, do NOT eat out of the container, or any of the things that generally lead to binging).
Oh, btw, I'm very short and my body weight is in the 110-115 range, so my calorie needs even for maintenance are relatively "low", before anyone flips out, lol.
I've read others say that where they run into problems is when they get their additional calories through junk. I'm hoping that by making mine flaxseed oil (and other "real" foods) that I'll be okay, but I'm still scared.
| current weight: 150.0