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ohhhh how He loves us OOOOH
Excellent! He will bless your efforts!!
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream."
"It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult."
From my blog today....
I hope that through this process of weight loss, I can be transparent enough so that it's seen that I'm a broken person. I'm a sinful person. My very nature is to do the things that hurt me most. I serve a God's that's bigger than anything I can experience, and I know that, but sometimes that sinful fallen nature wins the mental/emotional/spiritual battle and takes over. Every day I wake up and say... Ok God, today's gotta be your day or it will be infinately worse than I could imagine. Bad thing about me, I'm a control freak. I like things to be how I like them, how I want them, how I think they should be.
You'd think after living in control of my own life for so many years, I'd have it figured out that what I want isn't necessarily best. I really want a huge slice of chocolate cake right now. Is that bad? No, within reason, it's not. But could I eat a small slice? No, probably not. Would I end up eating half the cake in 1 day? Yes, probably. And if I did, I'd feel guilty for days. I'd feel ashamed and ugly. I'd feel unlovable. Man, and the thing is, when God found me, when he chose me, I was guilty, ashamed, ugly, and unlovable. And yet, He still chose me.
So today I want to choose what God has for me. I want to feel wanted and loved by a God who picked me out of the crowd at my lowest point. I want to choose to live the (healthy) lifestyle God wants for me. I want to choose to trust that even though it's not what I want, what God has for me will be so much better. Is that scary? HECK YES! Is it hard? HECK YES!
Some lyrics from one of my favorite songs says...
All I am, I surrender...Give me faith to trust what You say. That You're good and You're love is great. I'm broken inside, I give you my life....
On another note... down 4 lbs today. :-)