My Dear Sister in Christ Jodi,
I'm really sorry that you are not a happy person. I really to remember what that was like! It was pretty awful to have everything kind of colored gray and sad. Looking back, can I make a few suggestions that might have helped me become happier more quickly?
First get a thorough medical checkup by a top rate internist. I had some underlying health problems that were contributing to my depression that weren't discovered until later (that were causing chronic pain) that if were identified earlier, would have helped me recover sooner., Although you might not be in physical pain, there could be something else that is going on physically.
Second, your antidepressant sounds like it isn't working very well! An antidepressant is supposed to LIFT depression - not keep you in it - you need to talk to your doctor and get a medication overhaul and find a combination of medications that work for you that will lift you out of your depression.
Third, like you, my faith was lagging at times during my deepest depression. I don't know if it was the depression talking or what, but I found it hard to connect to God. Of course, I found it hard to connect to anyone, too! But that was me, I don't know how it is for you. I hope that you will join us on MTC, I think that if you have already read the book and returned it to the library, you can still answer the questions and still participate in the chat. I believe that we can talk openly about our faith (or lack of) as we all are on a journey. There are times when I have been disconnected from God and it has been lonely. It would have been so nice to have someone to talk to about it and not be judged! Believe me, you will not be judged here! We are all in this together. I am praying for you and your family.
Fourth, if you can, commit with me to join the PEEL Challenge this week. My computer is dead, and I can't use my husband's computer after today, so my challenge will be off line until mine is fixed, But if you can do one simple nutrition, exercise, spiritual, and personal (taking care of YOU) goal, you will be on the right track for a healthy lifestyle. Make them simple and attainable so you will be successful because success breeds success!
I wish you the best and hope that you have a good week this week. God Bless and Take Care. Let me know how things go.
Love, your sister in Christ,
I can do ALL things through Christ whom strengthens me.
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