You hit the nail on the head to be perfectly honest. I was on an anti depressant a few months back but had to stop because I lost my job and cannot afford them anymore. I am still not working. I do nothing all day long...I sit on my computer mostly playing games. I am so lazy and have zero motivation. I get a little spark of hope now and then, from resources like this one. But I usually give up before I begin to make progress.
I get overwhelmed with how bad we eat, and so then I just say "forget it, why bother trying". My husband made me breakfast this morning...5 strips of bacon, 4 eggs and toast. I love bacon..but I would not have it if he didn't make it for me. He's part of the problem....part..I myself assume 90% of the blame for being lazy, and not taking control myself. I feel like I don't know what to work on first...eating I suppose..I drink pop by the gallons, diet or regular...have a sugar addiction, don't move much...I was in a health club, and lost 6 lbs..but had to give up membership due to finances.
Anyway, I feel like someone who cries wolf all the time and no one will believe me anymore if I keep this up and down emotional rollercoaster ride. I just feel hopeless and scared.
I cry out for help now and then, but then people like you, try to help and I go off and lose interest...then my feet hurt or I see my reflection in a mirror, or see how fast I'm going downhill...and want to try again...up and down, up and down...I really hate how I am..thanks for listening and your advise.
p.s. I do take a good multivitamin every day. I also have low thyroid meds too.
ďAny fool can criticize, condemn, and complain but it takes CHARACTER and self control to be understanding and forgiving." and if we all try to practice this, it'll be a much nicer world :)
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