I understand your liking to watch - I like that sort of thing, too! When I had a hook-wire biopsy for a breast lump a few years ago, the Dr was trying to get me to look at the wall so I couldn't see him making the incision in my breast. I refused. In the end I told him I liked blood and guts which is probably why I was a First Responder. He gave up and accepted I was gory. It was actually quite interesting and if I had been allowed to be awake while they removed the lump, I would have, but that was a general anesthetic.
I hope that pain is reducing now and you get good results long term.
| current weight: 151.0