Merry Christmas everyone!
I haven't been doing very well lately ... I've been struggling a lot with this darn eating disorder, either restricting or binge/purging and I can't seem to get a hold of things. I'm scared. I'm scared for the first time that this disease is really going to kill me. It's killed everything else -- so why not me physically?
In any case ... my hope for tomorrow (Christmas day) is to eat like a normal person. We are having goose for dinner and I want to have dessert and egg nog too. This is my hope.
Merry Christmas to you all !!
| current weight: 120.0