Hey Judi, don't worry about what's done. The past is the past and every day is a new beginning. I, too, have been treated for bipolar disorder. I was able to go off meds a few years ago (by able I mean I quit because I didn't like the rubber stamp appointments- honestly, have they given ANY thought to the stress they put people thru!) so I no longer experience weight issues related to meds. I do, however, have times when coping with depression starts to feel unmanageable. By now you've probably heard it all, as have I, but I recently discovered how much better I really do feel if I force myself to go outside and get some sunshine. Even if I'm fighting with myself the whole way and grumping about how I'd rather just curl up in bed I can usually get myself outside for 5 minutes. I can really feel the difference almost immediately! The other thing that I've found out about myself, and I'm not sure if this relates to my BPD, is if I indulge my single-minded pursuit of the day, whether that be sitting on the computer working on a project, or Tumbling, or knitting non-stop, I tend to get very grumpy by the end of the day or if I get interrupted! I try to force myself to change up my activity before I become too locked into what I'm doing. It doesn't always work, but I know what kind of a meany I feel like if I let myself get too absorbed for too long. Now, I'm not sure any of this is helpful to you. I imagine you're getting sunlight since you're walking miles, and the exercise is great for you, too. You definitely could do with more sleep but, since I have a similar problem in that area, I can only spout the recommendations that you can find in articles all over this site and the internet on how we're supposed to achieve a good night's sleep! As for motivation, I save motivational pictures on Tumblr so that I can scroll through them when my enthusiasm is waning. The beginning is so tough, but just knowing that it's supposed to be hard and that it will eventually get better has helped me to keep at it. Take a look at some of the other success stories on this site. Bumps in the road happen and times get tough, but it's not a race. Just keep trying to think positive- even if you don't feel it. "Fake it till you make it!" I had to do a double-take when I saw your name. I have an aunt who spells her name the same way as you and she's close to the same age- but she lives by the shore and has cats :)
current weight: 213.6
Fitness Minutes: (26,053) Posts: 756 9/21/12 1:31 P
don't beat yourself up over a slip. just resolve to do better. We all encounter setbacks. The one thing we can do is to get motivation from others. this site helps a lot and there are a lot of people out there that go through the same struggles that you do, myself included. so I will tell you that " you can do it" good luck
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current weight: 265.0
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Hi, my name is Judi. I am 64 yrs old and over 40 lbs overweight. Have been most of my life! I live in a little cottage in the woods with my little dog Molly. Molly weighs 11 lbs and is a minature Daschund/Terrier mix. Molly and I walk for miles every day and she just loves to run. I have a hard time keeping up with her. I am a Diabetic with High Blood Pressure and High Cholesterol. I am Bi-Polar and this is kept pretty well under control with my meds, but, I do get depressed. I have never slept well and I think it has a lot to do with weight control. I average about 3 hrs a night and then I walk around in a daze and eat all day. I did really good when I first started on here 3 weeks ago. I bought everything for all the meals and at only what I was supposed to, but, 2 days ago I made a batch of the Apple Oatmeal Muffins and ended up eating every one of them while they were hot and I haven't stopped eating since. The 6 lbs I lost is starting to come back on. How do you get yourself motivated again after you have "fallen off the wagon". I am getting very depressed over this and hardly got out of bed to-day. Anybody got any good ideas for me? Thanks
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