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9/14/12 12:12 P

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Thank you, dear, dear, Cynthia!

I don't have "not liking myself" issues every day, but I know that I should have fought harder to be seen by a doc. Here in FL, if you are in a car accident, then the insurance on that vehicle is supposed to pay your medical expenses. Well, the company I worked for refused to give me their policy number, and my insurance (which was through PRogressive as well) told me it needed to go against the vehicle that was wrecked. The owner of the company made me sign a document before I could leave to go to the doctor that said they would not be responsible for any medical expenses. Nice, huh? And then they fired me 9 days later for being late to work - I couldn't wash my hair, let alone put on a bra, so how was I supposed to get there on time.

Anyway, that cheap b@!!%$^* is out of business now, which he deserves. And I wish I could punch him in his fat, condescending face!

Anyway... I am making myself like me more, but that was a major turning point in my life and it's been downhill ever since that accident. 2 nervous breakdowns and no employment since January 2009. I just can't seem to find much to be proud of, but I am finding reasons now... every time I drop a pound, or make you guys laugh!!

Thanks for the pep talk! You are very good at them as I am feeling a little better already.

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9/13/12 5:52 P

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Wow, Ang! I'm sorry you don't like you cuz WE like you :) You are dealing with a lot also....don't put down your own suffering and make it look insignificant. You aren't working because your body CAN'T work right now. There is no shame in that at all. I know perfectly well the courage it takes to get up each morning to face ANOTHER day of pain and weakness and fatigue. You have a place on this earth, just like each one of us does, and that "place" has nothing to do with physical strength or job productivity. You give to each one of us by being you and that gives us another shred of courage to face our own crap.
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9/13/12 4:49 P

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Linda, I can't believe you went from lifting 50 lbs to bed-ridden that quickly. But it really shouldn't surprise me because I used to be able to do that before that accident. I never got the neck surgery because they fired me that month. Job Corps refuses to pay anyone if they aren't on Center and doing their job - no matter what. So instead of letting me go out of Short-term disability, they fired me instead which made me lose my insurance immediately.

So, I have NEVER been treated for the 2005 accident, and am dealing with the repercussion of that ever since. It was 2 years more before I went back to work and got insurance, By then everything was healed but it was healed all jacked-up and my body betrayed me by becoming weak, and then the arthritis I have had since a child came back and laid out over my entire body. So, I am trying for diability so I can have the surgery and hopefully get my big butt back to work one day. I am sitting here wasting good talent every day, and it sickens me. It's part of the reason I don't like myself most days.

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9/12/12 9:15 A

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Wow! Angela!! You sure picked some doozie of jobs!! How horrible! That accident sounds like you were very lucky to be still able to walk!! I hope the neck surgery went well and that you are fully recovered now..
When I went into remission after having RA as a kid, in late high school, I got a job as a store clerk both for a private owner and 7-11 at night. The private store got held up no less then five times while I worked there, but I was lucky not to be on duty at the time as we always worked alone and had no safe place to put the cash, unlike 7-11 which has great security measures. When I graduated from high school, I went to work at the factory where my Mom was supervisor. I operated a two tonne hydraulic cutting press for five years, being able to lift 50 lb bundles of leather around daily like they were bags of popcorn ;) I also was taking martial arts at the time every day. It was the stress of these two activities the Dr.'s felt triggered the return of my RA which they had thought would never come back. I went from being healthy, strong and fit in three months to being laid up unable to get out of bed as every joint in my body flared up. I was admitted to hospital and given daily intensive physiotherapy -it took all day to get to all the joints, which kept me out of a wheelchair. Back then meds were basic. They tried me on aspirin, iron and gold, but thankfully, never used steroids. I now work as the Saskatoon Bridge Club Manager for which I get a quarterly honorarium. I put a pile of hours in, but fortunately, its mostly computer work so I can do it no matter how I am feeling at my own pace and time. I have had to do month end work even in spite of fresh surgeries, with the help of my ever supportive Mom she drives me to where ever I need to get to.

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9/10/12 4:50 P

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I have a disability hearing in December, so I have been unemployed since 2009. I used to be a Marketing Research Analyst for Johnson & Johnson (Acuvue contact lenses). I left that job as I had a mental breakdown - the place was only good for a masochist, and I wasn't into the smacking around anymore! They had me in a cash headlock - I couldn't afford to quit, but my life would have ended had I not left there. I was suicidal and needed to get away.

Then I worked as an Office Manager for an environmental clean up company - lots of late hours and dealing with the NHTSB. Then I broke my neck and shoulder and ribs and sternum and took a year off to heal since I was fired and had no insurance (I wrecked a compnay truck).

Then I went to work forJob Cops and was first an admin and then promoted to Records Supervisor. Was voted employee of the month, and when I told them I needed 8 weeks off to have neck surgery, they fired me. Nice, huh. That's the Dept of Labor for you!

Now I do taxes for some truck drivers and other people who need my services.

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9/10/12 12:20 A

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I as an at home mom for many years then we needed more income and I got the job I always dreamed of...working with the special Ed in the schools, then RA hit and I haven't been able to do that, I also did not work enough years in a row to qualify for SS so it's very tight for us financially, thank goodness we have good insurance though.

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9/9/12 11:39 P

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I'm a mom and grandma, taught elementary and middle school for a few years but days were too long for my limited store of energy, then worked part time for many years as church secretary treasurer and director of religious education, retired 2 years ago when my husband retired (at his insistence), now work at home as chief cook, housekeeper, gardener and preserver, and still volunteer as catechist at my church. Days are full but can set my own pace at home.

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9/9/12 7:47 P

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Right now I work as a cashier

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i just started to apply for disablity yesterday, so I'll see what happens. No, I don't work and what I used to do was help alot on our dairy farm, alot of yardwork, alot of gardening, flowers and veggies, painted inside and out, etc., etc. Before I was married to my DH dairy farmer, I worked at a lead mfr., as an inside sales person. I get so horribly weary and you so well know, that anything we over-do ourselves with, we really hurt the next days. I try to do just what a can and a little more and I'm so truly hoping that I can be approved with disability and/or with a drug mfr. that I've notified, to get some patient assistance, so I can possibly get on a biologic one day. My Dr.s both feel that I'm a candidate for them! emoticon



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9/9/12 7:03 P

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I have been a stay-at-home mom since 1994.
I have been a homeschool-mom since 1997.
When I worked for a pay check I was a nursing assistant in a hospital
telemetry unit. (Cardiac step down) it was my favorite paying job ever.

I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. :)
One thing for sure...I want to be healthier
and I want to encourage others. I'm working on that already.

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Having a hard time thinking of a poll question. It has occurred to me that I do not know what many of you "do"--are you on disability (as I am),, or do you work and if so , at what? If you are on disability what did you used to do? (I was an artist for many years, a mom, and a unit secretary in a hospital for about 5 years)


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