Hi. Welcome to the team. My heart just went out to you reading your post. That could of been me writing that. I lost my Dad in 1993 to lung cancer and it still hurts. He always taught me to go for the gold. You can do what ever you set your mind to do. When he was dying, I was also having problems with my teenage son. For years I got heavier and heavier and I didn't give a darn. I wanted to eat myself to death, who cared anyway. I wanted to go be with my Dad. He sure was better off than us suckers down here on this heck hole we call earth.
Then something happened and I did care. I have lost a lot of weight, It has been tough. I think of my Dad. Go for the gold. I went to the ortho Dr. and got a prescription for aquatic therapy. After my insurance ran out, I applied for a scholarship to pay for the pool and fitness center at the Hospital for Special Care. It took almost a year but I finally got it. It is up at the end of this month. I will find a way to pay for the pool. I am not going to give it up. It helps with the pain of my OA, it is easy on the joints, and I have never been stronger. I can see muscle, not just flab. I was in physical therapy and when tested I have normal strength.
That is huge for me. I was way way in the low percentile when I started. My pain went from a 8 to a 2 sometimes a 4 on a rainy day.
When you want to give up, look in the mirror and pretend that is your best friend that you are looking at. What would you tell her if she told you I quit. You would encourage her. Well, encourage yourself, be your own best friend. Remember your Dad like I do. Go for the gold he would say. You, remember your Dad's determination. My Dad second place was only good enough if you tried your best.. Sometimes when I don't want to exercise, I do it and say this is for you Dad. or ask him for the strength to do it. I have felt his presence at times.
Stay in touch with the team. We are always here to encourage support and give your that gentle push if that;s what you need. When you have successes, please post and tell us. We love doing the happy dance
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