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Welcome to the place to vent what makes you unhappy.
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Read some the other comments and see if you relate to one or two. Then let them know.

FACEURFEARS, I can relate! Motivation is the hardest thing in the world! I lost 60 lbs two years ago. emoticon I looked and felt great. Helped to keep moving!

Six months later I get colon pain - pain pills. It took 5 months to resolve. Then I get shoulder pain - pain pills. It took another 5 months to resolve. Up 30 lbs and I'm having a heck of a time getting motivated. emoticon

My way of dealing with this now is remembering one wonderful memory. I have so many! Children memories, grandchildren memories, vacations, cruises to the Carribean Islands, boyfriends.

SO! It's hard work but I am now working on one happy memory and when I start to feel sad or nothing - I go back to that one happy memory. I also make a to do list of 3 things to get done. Housework (ICK) I break down into each step (such as, dust living room, then vacume living room, load dishwasher,) and scratch off what I did. it could be one thing or two. The next day I make a new list. I also will put on the list- read, sew, get out of the house, live in the moment. emoticon Sounds like a lot. But baby steps are the way to go. emoticon

All who is reading this can do this.

I'M WORKING VERY HARD TO PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH!!!! emoticon

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

Building my bucket list and enjoying the ones I've accomplished!!! I quit smoking and have visited 34 out of 50 states, WENT TO Disneyland in2014 for the first time, had African lobster in 2014,and wsent to second hand stores in Laguna Beach Cal.

But I want to see the grand canyon, smithsonian institute, eat lobster in Portland Maine, a train trip for two months down the east coast then rent a car to other states I have not been to in the South and have enough money to thoroughly enjoy


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2/26/15 10:39 A

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I totally relate to the bazillino time....and the same 10 lbs...right now Im at about 7-8 lbs lost,,and until it hits 11...or more...Im not over excited. Doesnt mean Im not happy. It just means I know I am changing something different this time ( my thinking) to push past the 10 and keep going.

Here's to pushing past and trusting ourselves enough (and God) to know we can:)

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2/26/15 10:34 A

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Hi Faceurfears:) That's a long time to struggle so much. Sometimes just doing the basics...is what you need. Get up...shower...start. Just start. You might think Im a bit crazy, but I have struggled with depression at one point...quite a low point in life. I had heard something and tried it...I do it to this day. I put on comedy. I know it sounds like the last thing you'd want to do.

God says laughter is the best medicine and He is right. Back then, I loved the show, MASH. There's scientific evidence that laughter changes the chemical in our brains. Not kidding. What have you got to lose:) Perhaps focus on the bare minimum right now...and work on your 'spirit' ...

I do remember getting out of bed facing 7 kids WAS A CHORE ( for a period of time) Please be nice to yourself...but also?...Require something of yourself. Anyone around you to help is nice, too. That you can be 'gut' honest with. You can do this.

Don't let 50 lbs define you as a person. It's just a part of life you'd like to change. It isn't who you are. I hope you check in often. Every day. Twice a day? Every hour? Do what works. I'd love to hear back from you,,,here,,,or friend me/email me.

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2/26/15 10:27 A

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thank you Mrs Toad:)...Froggydown...love what you wrote!! Pigleg and Pooh....reminds me of conversations in the past when going to eat and someone says 'Im not hungry'..and I say...what's that got to do with it? lol No More!!

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emoticon to the team, FACEURFEARS aka Maria. I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling to get out of bed. What an awful place to be. My heart goes out to you. If you are able, try setting one goal for the day and then track it. Not only do you see some success as you see your progress, but it will also help lift your spirits as you have achieved something. Hang in there! You are NOT alone.

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emoticon REDDMARIE7. What a busy life you lead with 7 adults kids and 23 grand-kids! This is indeed a great place to find motivation and support. Sometimes it comes simply by reading someone else's post and how it resounds in our own lives. While each of our lives are so different, they really are similar in many ways. Please feel free to join the conversation on any of our threads. We look forward to helping you find that healthier you.

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2/26/15 1:50 A

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Thanks everyone. Mrs. Toad that's great advice. Nitrous/Jayme I forgot to mention I'm stuck in that 10 lb range too, up and down and up and down. I don't know, but lately I am not as focused on the weight, and feel like if I just focus on healthy habits (physical and mental), and support via things like SP, the weight issue will correct itself. I feel like it's a symptom, not the cause of my problems.

Hey FACEYOURFEARS, how do you like that SP activity tracker? I am thinking of getting one too bc my phone is a little older and can't use the latest step counting apps.

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2/26/15 1:41 A

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FACEURFEARS --

In the words of Winnie the Pooh:

“When you wake up in the morning, Pooh," said Piglet at last, "what's the first thing you say to yourself?"

"What's for breakfast?" said Pooh. "What do you say, Piglet?"

"I say, I wonder what's going to happen exciting today?" said Piglet.

Pooh nodded thoughtfully. "It's the same thing," he said.”

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2/25/15 3:38 P

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Hi, I'm new to this group. Been battling depression for the last 4 years! Have gained around 50lbs and are miserable. I am struggling right now in just getting the smallest things done. Personally if I could stay in bed all day, I would. My motivation level is so low. Nothing inspires me. I am so tired of being this way but just can't seem to snap out of it. Tired of all the medications that make you comfortably numb. How do you find motivation on those dark days when getting out of bed seems like a chore?

Live to Win by Facing your Fears! www.live2win.org


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2/25/15 3:07 P

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Welcome Froggy Down. I have been away from SP for awhile, but am back now and everyone in this group does seem to be very supportive. I wish you the best on your journey to figure out your life.

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2/25/15 12:21 P

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Hello everyone:) Im 'new', also, though I've been making my rounds like crazy in the last couple of weeks. New in 2010...new, again. lol I think I joined this group back in the day. I've visited several others, according to age...but just popped in here, today.

First,,Mrs Toad? You're very supportive..and so on top of things! That is way cool:)

What caught my eye was the poster who mentioned adhd. I, also, have it,,and have known it for many years, but never used meds till after 50 yrs of age. Imagine.

I feel like I'm sort of 'discovering' something, reading so many ppl's stories. I'm seeing how food is such a crutch. Medicine. A way to internalize stress and whatever.

It's one thing to hear that over and over in the billion books I've read on weight loss and every other 'issue' in life..lol...but to really 'get it'...is taking some real effort and time. It's obvious I use food in a manner in which it's not intended...and of course I eat emotionally...yadda yadda....why don't I write a book and get rich??? lol

We all could. I'm determined this time. Maybe it's cuz Im 59...and the clock is ticking...I always was a hard nut to crack. I think one of my main goals right now, besides the obvious stuff (tracking, exercise,,not that those are easy) is to really let the 'cliche's' sink in...

Like...Im eating emotionally...do I try to 'sit' and just 'feel' the stress and not 'feed' it. Im really trying, on a daily basis to look at those 'moment's'. They come often. Sometimes hourly. Or more. Wanting to eat. It's like wanting a cigarette. I almost don't care about the 'food rules', because for me I'm really starting to see it's not about the food. I don't have it all figured out. In fact, I'm really just starting...but what DOES feel different this time,,,is I'm seeing that those things that make me reach for food,,,are the things that I need to reach for something else. People. Support. Practical things. Dare to take a chance on myself lol

Im a talker:) I don't aplogize. Having a captive audience is kind of energizing lol

Have a great day. Take one thing,,,and do it well. One Day at a Time is my new mantra

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2/25/15 11:24 A

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Thanks MRS_TOAD. I've really enjoyed being on this site in the past, so I'm trying to get involved early so that I stick with it this time!

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emoticon to the team, FROGGYDOWN aka Rachel. I'm so glad you haven't given up your journey to a healthier and happier you! We all go through times when we regress back to old, unhealthy behaviors, but today is a new day with new possibilities. Just start with one small, healthy goal and work from there. You are NOT alone.

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emoticon to the team, NITROUS87. I'm sorry to hear that budgetary restraints became such an issue. The good news is that this site is free and there is loads of motivation and support to be found here. You also have the added bonus of a supportive BF which is wonderful. If you need anything, please feel free to ask. We are here for you.

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2/25/15 10:36 A

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Thanks for the welcome FROGGYDOWN! I love the story behind your username, it's cute! Mine is just an old nickname from high school, followed by my birth year. Nitrous has just kind of become my official handle online, since I've started playing more online video games. My real name is Jayme, which I've used before as a username on here.

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Welcome back Lady_Evaine. Love your Galaxy Quest quote. Such a sweet, funny movie. Sorry you've been having a rough time. Glad you're back. Hugs.

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Hi folks, I'm Rachel and I'm new to this team. I also just joined the "other" depression SparkTeam (our competition!), the one with "with movement" in the name. I have never been in any kind of online support group for my depression but I have found SP in general a very supportive and encouraging environment in the past when I've been active, so I'm hoping that'll be the case for The Big D too. Depression is really holding me back. I need to figure out my life.

For my first order of business I will welcome the person below me on this thread, NITROUS87, to the team. Welcome NITROUS87! What does your username mean? Mine is just a silly nonsense phrase we say in my family. It can be used to mean whatever the user wants. For example:

Dad: "Rachel, feet off the coffee table!"
Me: (protesting) "Froggy down!"

Good luck to us all on our journeys.

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2/24/15 1:30 P

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Hi all! I'm mostly new here, been on the site a few times in the past, been part of this team a few times as well but never posted much as my depression was kept pretty well in-check. I'm back to trying Spark to really get serious about my weight loss, and trying to keep up on team memberships to keep me engaged in the site.

Just a little background, as far as weight loss goes I've tried a bazillion times to lose and always end up slacking off on what I know works after a while. I've been stuck in the same 10lb range for longer than I can remember, and I'm ready to get rid of it. I know that tracking my food is one thing that always has worked for me, which is why I keep coming back to this site. I did Weight Watchers for a few months last year, and was doing pretty good then, until my budget had to be made more strict and I couldn't afford meetings anymore. Then I put the weight back on again. I could write about this all day, but I'm trying to keep this short!

I've had ups and downs with my moods for a long time as well. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15/16 (I'm 27 now). It took over my life for a long time, but I've been able to mostly keep it in-check since college with counseling and supports in my life. My mom is my biggest supporter in everything, and I always talk to her about things. My current boyfriend is a great support as well, especially since he has dealt with depression in the past as well. We support each other now when things are going bad. I've never been very active in this team when on here in the past, because things were going good, but lately I find myself feeling sad and disconnected more often than I'd like. So I decided to join back up here, and hopefully can find some brightness again while working on improving myself!

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2/23/15 10:24 P

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Hello Tracy, welcome back. I have been gone for awhile too but felt the need to come back. This year will be a better one for you. Think positive and know that we are all here to support you.

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emoticon TRACY180. You, too, have faced difficulties in your life. Know that we are here to help give you both motivation and support along this journey to a healthier you. If there is anything specific we can do, please feel free to ask. We are here for you.

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emoticon LADY_EVAINE. I'm so sorry to read of all your difficulties in the past year. You have been through so much! The good news is that you are back and being your journey toward a healthier you. This is YOUR year! This is YOUR time. We are here to cheer you on to each victory and to share any tears along the way. You CAN and WILL succeed.

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2/22/15 4:58 P

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I have been on this team for a long time but haven't touched SP much in the past few years. I discovered that I can do this on my kindle fire rather than my 2009 computer.
If you remember me, I started food stamps for the first time last year. Ugh. My finances sucked last year. I think this year will be better.

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O penly sharing feelings, thoughts and needs with others
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Thank you guys! I will definitely check out the new members guide and some other threads tonight at work. So far, so good. Met my water intake yesterday, making healthier food choices, and this is day 3 of weaning me off my zoloft - no withdrawals! Starting to feel less discouraged about this entire process.

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Hi everyone! I'm not actually new to SparkPeople or this team, but it's been many months since I last logged in and many years since I first joined SparkPeople. I'm trying to get back on track with my health. I've had a rough couple of years, and an even rougher time in the last 2 months. I've updated my SparkPage if anyone wants to take a look. Feel free to add me as a friend as well.

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2/22/15 11:21 A

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Thank you very much Mrs.Toad for the nice welcome.

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emoticon to the team, THERHAPSODY89 aka Nichole. I'm so glad you were referred to this site. It is a great place to find motivation and support when the world seems to be collapsing around you. If you haven't already, check on the team's threads. There's a wide variety of topics and a great place to post or just peruse.

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emoticon to the team, KECHARA14 aka Patty. We're so glad you took the time to post. If there's anything we can do for you, please let us know. We are a caring team that wants to help motivate and support you along your journey to a healthier you.

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Welcome Nichole. You're in a good place. SparkPeople has a lot to offer for ones overall health and wellness. I urge you to take a good look around the website stating with the "New Member Welcome Guide" if you haven't done so already. Best wishes to you.

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Hey, my name is Nichole! Been dealing with depression and anxiety for a few years now. Started seeing a new psychiatrist last week who recommended this site to me. He also took me off my antidepressant and cut my anxiety pills in half. So here we are.

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Good Evening, My name is Patty and it has been many months since I have logged into Spark People, but I feel the need to come back and kick start my passion for getting healthy in mind and body.

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emoticon to the team, CHRISTIC77 aka Christi! We're so glad you took the time to post. (You did fine.) You have joined a great group of folks that are taking the same journey as you; that is, to find healthiness both physically and emotionally. If you haven't already, check out our other threads. There's a lot going on within this team. If you need anything at all, please feel free to ask.

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ok im not sure if im doing this right I was asked to itriduce myself hi im christi and im here to get healthy both physically and emotionly

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Welcome to the team Scboykin. You're in the right place. SparkPeople is not a quick fix but it easy if you stick to it! Best wishes.

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emoticon to the team, SCBOYKIN. I'm so sorry to hear about your physical issues that are troubling you. The good news is that you are here and committed to finding and maintaining a healthier way of life. Remember to start slowly. While this may seem counterproductive, it will help keep you from becoming overwhelmed. Set a couple small, healthy goals and work from there. You can do this!

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Welcome to our team. I was very surprised to learn that your lap band 'grew' into your stomach. Didn't know that was possible.

Anyway, we can do it with SparkPeople and the confidence we build day by day.

Keep Sparking and tracking!!



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Hi, I am new, just started tracking food today. I lost all my weight for my son's wedding in 2006 and quickly gained it back. Then I had the lap band put in and lo and behold it grew into my stomach and I had to have it taken out. So I have to do this myself, no quick fixes. I have sort of a hard time because of physical ailments. I want to be able to keep my grandchildren without being out of breath and exhausted. Looking hot again in my 50's wouldn't be bad either!

I need to remember why I started.


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emoticon to the team, PEGGYMCW. We are so glad you are here. If there is anything we can assist you with please feel free to ask. If you haven't already, feel free to check out our Daily Thread and/or our Joke Thread. Both can give you a lift on those dark days.

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emoticon to Spark, DIANAS17. As you know, this is a great place to find motivation and support on a daily basis. The great news is, you are back and resuming your walk to a healthier you. This is indeed YOUR time! You can do it by taking one small, healthy step at a time.

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One day at a time is how I am looking at it. Good luck on your new quest!
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Hi everyone! I'm not new to this team, but I haven't posted in years so I wanted to re-introduce myself. I was diagnosed with ADHD over a year ago and it seems a lot of my depression was related to my inability to get things done. I'm doing a lot better, but still have my rough times, and I'm working on overcoming my belief that I can't achieve my goals. So excited to be part of the community again!

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Great quote, ARMOMMI2!

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"Embrace your vulnerability, and accept your imperfections, knowing they represent a small part of your past, but not who you are in the present or who you can be in the future." — Amit Sood, M.D.
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To any newbies perusing this thread, emoticon to the team. We are here to help motivate and support you during your journey to a healthier, happier you. Feel free to add your post to this thread so that we know you are here.
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MRS TOAD--Thank you !!!!!! I will!!! Today isn't too bad but I have a ways to go. As long as I have support behind me I'll be OK!!!!!

Elise--Middlesex County, NJ

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ELISE-COCOA7753- One suggestion I would have is to peruse or even participate in the Daily Thread or Help I'm Having a Bad Day Thread. They both a lot of traffic and there is a lot shared on those threads. Another suggestion is to set a couple of small goals and track them daily.(Maybe drink 64 oz of water a day, don't drink any soda a day, or even 10 minutes of exercise/strength training.) The advantage of tracking your goals is that you see your progress and it gives you encouragement to continue the next day. One last suggestion would be to add some Spark Friends. Then you can see their progress and they can see yours. This is yet another way to be both accountable and motivated.

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emoticon For your kind words!!!!! I'm trying to make the best of it but it's hard!!!! Sometimes I don't know how to cope--maybe you can help me!!!!! I try to keep busy but sometimes that doesn't help. Any suggestions?

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emoticon XKAREN921. What kind words you shared. I hope you find support and care during your time of grief. I lost a dear family member not too long ago and am still finding I am grieving at times. But you are right! We are here to love life and I am doing that more and more with each passing day/month.

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emoticon !!!!! It has been a tough journey for me but I hope you can help. I'm starting this year with a better mindset--this is the year I'm going to lose weight!!!!!!! Where is the best place to post?

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Just lost my best friend, my brother, 4 months ago, so sorry for you having to feel this way! We're gonna live on and(pretty please) love this life we've been given🍀

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emoticon to the team, ELISE-COCOA7753 aka Elise. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of Mom and your BF. My heart goes out to you. Remember to take this journey slowly. Set a couple small, healthy goals (examples: drinking 64 oz. of water or 10 minutes of fitness a day) and track them. As they become less challenging, set some new goals.Whatever you do, know you are not alone on this journey to a healthier you.

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emoticon !!! My name is Elise & live in NJ. I have been very emotional for the past 40 years due to the death of my mother & my then BF. Of course, it has affected my eating & weight. I, still, get emotional even now & could use a lot of support. I would appreciate all the help you can give!!!!!! By the way, where is the best place to post? emoticon

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emoticon to both SparkPeople and the team, MOTHEROF6BOYS. What a busy life and so full of chaos! No wonder you chose food as a comfort. The good news is that your life appears to have changed for the better with your new, supportive and loving DH. What a gift to have him in your life. 2015 is YOUR year! By setting some small, trackable goals and working to achieve them on a daily basis you will find success. Remember, you are NOT alone on this journey to a healthier, happier you. We are here for you.

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Hi. My name is Vicki and I have been struggling with guilt and depression for many years for so many reasons. I had more things happen in my life than was possible for me to accept, things I had no control over, so I did the only thing I did have control over...eat! I binge, feel guilty, diet for a week and then binge again when I need to feel in control again. After being in an abusive marriage for 18 years, being held against my will overseas for 3 years, having 4 of my children kidnapped and taken from me (I still haven't seen my 18 year old since he was 9 years old), nursing my son with brain cancer back to health (thank God he is ok now) after his father finally decided to bring him home for treatment and then taking 2 years to get a divorce from this man, I finally met a man who is wonderful. We have been married 6 years and he accepted me with all my kids, my emotional baggage and my extra weight. He promised to stand by me to help me get my health back and he has. But the guilt I have felt over the lives of my children have kept me from fulfilling my promise to him, which has added more guilt to me. I need to get my life back and finally get the life with my husband I deserve and he deserves after being so patient with me. I need support and this is why I am here. Thanks...

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emoticon HILLARYH9201. You have had some significant changes in the past year. Talk about stress! The good news is that 2015 is your year! It's all about small, healthy changes. Just don't let yourself become overwhelmed with this journey as it is a marathon and not a sprint. Whatever you do, know we are here for you.

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Hello everyone! This is my second time around sparkpeople. I recently moved across the state and working a job as a special education teacher which is not easy and full of stress. I am really going to need support and would love to help other people on their journey. I know how important that is and I am ready for my healthy life!
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Thanks, guys :D

I think I'm off to a decent start. I have a few not-so-healthy snacks left over from last time we went grocery shopping, so I'm allowing myself to finish those off while focusing on making the main meals healthier & more appropriate. Lets me focus on the bigger goals to get into the habit. Then, onto healthy eating all around :)

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Hello and Welcome LADYGRRIMM & NURSEKYRAKNITS, like Mrs Toad said I would totally take baby steps, and there are some great goals to help you off toward the right steps, such as practicing drinking more water, eating one fruit a day and moving on from there, I also joined this team maybe a week ago and struggle here and there but am still doing my goals that I signed up for important thing is don't push your self way too hard it took us a while to get here and it will take a bit to get where we'd like to be!

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emoticon to Spark, LADYGRRIMM. What an incredibly busy life you lead between college, marriage and toddler... The good news is that NOW is your time. Add yourself to that busy calendar! You need some "me time" to exercise, plan healthy menus and shop. This team is here to motivate and support you. You can do this.

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emoticon to both Spark and the Team, NURSEKYRAKNITS aka Kyra. It's so good to know you are stable with your meds, but gaining weight due to those same meds is quite frustrating as so many of this team knows first-hand. Take this journey slowly, by setting a couple of small goals and work from there. Whatever you decide, know we are here for you.

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Happy new year, everyone! Used to be a Spark member a few years ago, rejoining for the sake of new year's resolutions. I figured I'd introduce myself to the communities I'm in, take some time to meet my new comrades in my renewed battle to get healthy and get happy.

I'm 23, from Ohio. I'm married (1 1/2 years) to an amazing-but-sometimes-frustrating-man with a crazy-and-exhausting-but-wonderful-and-ama
zing child (2 years old). I'm a stay-at-home mom, but, as of September '14, I've gone back to college for a degree in Communications. I'm aiming for a career in editing, or something similar.

As for what has brought me to Spark once again, I'm 250.6 pounds and I hate my body. I hate the clothes I have to wear, I hate the bad health I'm in, I hate the way I eat (and don't eat). I just am so far away from being happy with what I am and what I look like. I want to be healthy and feel beautiful, or at least comfortable. I want to be proud of the skin I'm in, and I'm not. So, here I am. Hopefully with the Spark community and some honest determination, I can reach my goal of 170 pounds by October. I'm ecstatic and anxious to see it happen.

As for what has brought me to this particular group, I suffer from depression. I've never been diagnosed with bi-polar, but sometimes I think what I go through is closer to that than static depression. It probably doesn't help that my mental health isn't medicated right now, and hasn't been in almost a year. I know, though, that it's also the fact that I have no one local, besides my husband, that I can connect with. What friends I do have are mostly in Florida (where I'm originally from) and I haven't seen them in years. I just feel like I have no one to really connect with when I need it, and I end up feeling extremely lonely. Another huge factor for my recent depressive issues has been the increasing stress from returning to school and the program being more fast-paced than I can generally keep up with. There's just days where I don't comprehend in the slightest why or how I'm supposed to deal with any of this.

We're currently changing insurances, but I'm hoping by the end of the month, I will be on the path to being back on meds, at least.

Anyway, I look forward to getting to know you guys. Happy new year, and best of luck to everyone with their goals for 2015!

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Hi everyone! My name is Kyra and I just joined Spark People today. I have bipolar disorder but I am much more prone to depressive states than mania. I put on 30+ lbs over the past few years mostly due to different medications I've been on....primarily Remeron (aka mirtazapine, an antidepressant) and Seroquel (aka quetiapine, an anti-psychotic/mood stabilizer). I have been feeling emotionally stable since about June 2014, which is a LONG time for me. I feel like the combination of meds I'm on is really working for me. Now it's time to lose the weight and get physically healthy!

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Hi BlackCoffee 519, you are totally not alone! the best thing you did was try again it's never too late to always try again!!

and Thank you Mrs. Toad for having me!

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emoticon BLACKCOFFEE519. I'm so glad you are back and took the time to introduce yourself. Hang in there until you see your doctor. We are here to help you stay motivated as you wait for your appointment. If you haven't already, chose a small, achievable goal that you can track. As a streak grows, this will give you motivation to continue toward that healthy goal. You are NOT alone.

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emoticon TWEETY2871 aka Cynthia. I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling with your nutrition and exercise due to depression/anxiety. It's tough, but can be overcome. This team is a great place to find motivation and support. Stick to small, track-able goals each day so you don't become overwhelmed. Whatever you decide know that we are here for you.

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Hey, guys! I just (rejoined) SparkPeople after a really long hiatus. My depression isn't at an all time high, but it's still very much there. Hopefully when I see my psychiatrist in January things will change (we are switching my meds). Anyways, I would love to make friends!

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Hello my name is Cynthia, I am here to build an overall healthier lifestyle I am no stranger to eating right and exercise but I do fall of the wagon from time to time, I was afraid of coming forward with my depression till I recently learned that my anxiety was very bad and causing other issues such as messing with my indigestion I came forward just so I could feel like I could function again, I have been on Celexa for about 2 years and have been doing good with this.

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emoticon to all the new team members... emoticon to SP! It's nice to have to have you with us on the journey to a healthier lifestyle.

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.

Mistakes are the portals of discovery.

Don't be afraid to give your best at what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves.

It is never too late to be what you might have been.


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emoticon to both Spark and the team, KURONORU aka Téa. You have made some very positive changes in the last year. Between college, your mental health program, your boyfriend and your healthy lifestyle changes.... What great accomplishments! You deserve a pat on the back. However, I can hear your frustration and sadness. That's the great news about this team and Spark. There is tons of support and motivation available. All you have to do is ask for what you need and always know you are NOT alone on this journey.

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Made a separate thread for introductions but figured I would post a little in here since I didn't really give much detail on the one I made.

I'm brand new to the team as well as sparkpeople, but I already love it here. My name is Téa, and I have had depression for so long I can't really remember a time where I didn't, unfortunately. In the past year and a half, I moved from my home state to a different state abruptly (due to loss of housing) and I had to live in an extremely run down 1969 airstream camper, complete with black mold everywhere and a horrible shower. I lived there for 10 months in total despair, it was quite possibly the worst my depression has ever been, rivaling the first 2 years of highschool.

I started going to college last January, though, and met my boyfriend there. I moved in with him after about a week (crazy I know) because he couldn't live knowing the horrible conditions I was in. Since then with tons of his support, I've entered into a mental health program for the first time ever, and I'm taking Wellbutrin, which has done A TON for me. I finally feel like I can breathe after years.

Even though my depression has gotten loads better, it still lingers. I don't have a job yet and I am a late start on getting a license (so everyone has to drive me places... it's embarrassing but driving gives me so much anxiety!) and recently that's been getting me down, feeling like a failure. And even though I've been in college a year, I don't really have any "friends," you know, the ones who like you enough to see you outside of school? Yeah.

I have nothing to do at home because I lack any real hobbies, so I am trying to stick to exercise and changing my lifestyle for once in hopes it will help, and getting the body I've always wanted would do so much for my self-esteem.

My main coping mechanisms are eating my weight in junk food and talking, A LOT, about what's bugging me. I can admit I am a complainer. But I am a recovering self-harmer, and I think talking someone's ear off is better than that. So basically, this means I will be relying on this team a lot, and complaining. A lot. Sorry!

Sorry for the block of text. Like I said, I like to talk. Whoops.

Here I am, Queen of extremely long posts and procrastination.


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emoticon to the team, NWOODS9 aka Norma Jean. (Congrats on your 14 years of sobriety. What a feat of strength!) This team is a great place to find support and motivation. Unfortunately, the winter months can often make it more difficult to exercise and battle depression. The good news is that we are here for you. Just ask for what you need.

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Hi, I'm Norma Jean. I've battled depression since I graduation from high school. Became inactive and lead a sedentary life style.

I medicated myself with alcohol to relieve the depression. Didn't know at the time I was depressed.

I have been sober for 14 years this August 16, 2015. I started taking Zoloft shortly after I stopped drinking.

Since I've joined SparkPeople, and started loosing weigh, I stopped taking Zoloft in April, 2014. This is the first time I've managed the Fall Blues this well since I recognized my depression.

Good new is that I discovered exercising is the key for me. I've become more active and the journey continues. I knew and heard that exercise was good for depression, but didn't act on it.

Well, better later than never!!

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On my way to a better life. Fulfilling some goals I've failed in the past and pursuing new challenges to achieve my life's journey to wellness.

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emoticon to the team, AB8174. You have been here on Spark for 5 years so you know that your battle with depression and PTSD has its down time. We are here to offer you support. If there is anything we can do to help, feel free to ask. In the meantime, stick to small, healthy and achievable goals. These small changes really do help over the long run.

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emoticon to the team, OOPSOCD. I'm so sorry to hear you have struggled with depression since your teens. It certainly is a challenging and frustrating disease. The good news is that this team knows the ins and outs of depression first-hand and can offer support and motivation. We are here for you.

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Hello :) I have been a member of Spark for about 5 years and have had some success with it, though I find it incredibly hard to stay on track due to my depression and PTSD. I realize how much better I feel when I exercise and eat right, but my mind seems to fight me the whole way. Anyway, I hope I can find some support here to help me get on with the challenges ahead.

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emoticon to all the new team members... emoticon to SparkPeople's DwD team emoticon ...Nice to have you with us on the journey to a healthier lifestyle.

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.

Mistakes are the portals of discovery.

Don't be afraid to give your best at what seemingly are small jobs. Every time you conquer one it makes you that much stronger. If you do the little jobs well, the big ones will tend to take care of themselves.

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My name is Chantal and I'm new to the team. I've dealt with depression since I was in high school so it's just a part of who I am.

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emoticon to the team, FABULOUSINBLUE. I'm so sorry to hear about your medical difficulties. All of that and then to break your foot. The good news is that you found Spark and this team. We look forward to helping you during this time of recovery and healing. Take it easy on that foot and continue working those seated exercises under the instruction of your therapist.

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emoticon POPEYETHETURTLE! I'm so, so sorry to hear about your 10+ week ordeal, but I'm glad to see you back here on Spark. I have always looked up to your honesty and straightforwardness. You and your DW have been through the ringer and need all the support and motivation this team can give. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you along the way. You are NOT alone and have been terribly missed.

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Hi everyone,
I joined SP last week and am slowly getting to know my way around the place. I have struggled with depression for many years. My mother died when I was 14 but was in an institution on and off for a couple of years before that due to undiagnosed epilepsy. I had two major episodes of depression at 30 and 34 when my daughters were born and in the second instance was admitted to a mother baby unit for 10 days when my youngest was five months old. I have been on and off medication since then and am now 52 and still battling it. When I was 44 I joined the local gym again but this time committed to it fully and lost twelve kilos. I love exercise but most of all the company of others. At home on my own I often feel depressed. In September I injured back and five weeks ago I slipped and broke a bone in my foot and so I have not been able to participate in the same activities. Even when I recover I probably will be a bit limited to what I can do. Back to the black dog again. I was reading an article last week on SP and thought, what the heck I'll join. I did have a trainer as I was pressed for time but she has not been in contact with me since I hurt my foot which has surprised and hurt me. One of my other group leaders suggested supplementing seated exercises whilst wearing the boot. I hadn't even thought of this due to being depressed. The physiotherapist agrees I can do these. Needless to say I won't be going back to the trainer. The weight has crept up again but I am glad I have people to talk to.

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OK, I'm not new, but I have been MIA for quite a while.

While I recognize almost all of the leaders, I am not familiar with many of the people who are now active on the team boards.

Since I was one of the original founders of this team, and currently the most senior in terms of time, I can't accept what I've done.

Yes, I have been completely absent from Spark for almost a year. Being gone for such a long time was necessary for me. I was feeling overwhelmed and I was having some instances of Severe Depression.

I am feeling better now, and over the course of the year have dropped my dosage of Effexor 75 mg; dropped Lamotrigine 50 mg; dropped Clonazepam 2 me's; and Trazodone 100 mg. If you had asked me last year at this time, I would have told you you must "REALLY" be insane to suggest such a thing. Good thing I didn't listen to myself!

Woops, the alarm just went off and I need to check the rise on my home made yeast rolls. I've found that an old time hobby seems to be doing something positive - especially when I'm pounding dough or flattening chicken for Chicken Cordon Bleu as I did yesterday. My wife loves it when I cook.

Yes, I can smell the yeast. They are ready for the oven. I get the very first one as soon as it cools down enough to eat, and yes, I have planned it into my meal plan for today.

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DORKYMISSSTL,

Yes, it is different for everyone.

When I couldn't stand it anymore, I sought help with a licensed psychologist, but that just taught me how to lie to her - things didn't get better at all.

My DW was very worried about me and had a feeling I was thinking about suicide. In my next to pivotal visit, she (my psychologist doc) suggested that I bring my wife to the next meeting so she could give some pointers on how to recognize when I was having a more than difficult day and what my wife could do to help.

I'm also diabetic, so I MUST always have my Insulin. It just so happens that a massive overdose of Insulin has been a tool for suicide. The day my wife took off work to go see my psychologist, I had plans to go back home, then end my life while my wife was at work.

I know that isn't rational, but at the time I physically and psychically hurt so bad I couldn't stand it. I Couldn't think rationally.

After about 10 minutes of blah, blah, blah, my psychologist came straight out, told me of my wifes concerns and asked me if I was planning to suicide. The question blew me away. I couldn't answer and I felt like I had an out of body experience, looking at everyone in the room from high in the northeast corner.

When I felt re-attached to my body, I simply said, "Yes". That got me a Stat admission to our local Cuckoo Clock Resort and Spa Therapy center.

The psychiatrist team immediately started me on Prozac and doubled the dose the next day and on the third day put me on the max dosage - didn't work. Three different, increasingly powerful drugs were tried with zero results. I started spontaneously bursting into tears, going to my room and pulling the sheet and blanket over my head.

They then started me on the then most powerful anti-depressant in their arsenal. It was supposed to start at 37.5 mg and not be raised for at least a week. Two days later they doubled the dosage, two days after that they jumped to the then recognized maximum of 350 mg of Effexor, daily. The second day at that dosage, the spontaneous crying quit. I was back to a little better than when I came in, but not enough to please me or the doctors.

They started combining different psych meds to see if I would improve. The first one they tried caused me to have seizures after the second day. I was taken by ambulance to the regular hospital where they treated me for seizure disorder. The neurologist was very thorough and dc'd the second psych drug and added Lamotrigine to the Effexor. When I had gone 48 hours with no additional seizures, I was released from the hospital and returned to the psych hospital.

Lamotrigine has a synergistic affect when combined with Effexor, and my psychiatrist doubled the dose the neurologist had prescribed to 200 mg. This mellowed me out some more as far as the depression went, but I started having panic attacks, so they added Clonazepam 1.0 me twice daily or as needed. During the entire time I was at the "Resort" I woke up multiple times in the night, so my doctors added 300-400 mg of Trazodone, nightly.

All of this stopped my descent into Hell. My terrifying dreams of going deep under the earth stopped at the edge of the magma, past the safety chains. I was looking at the magma when I slowly, slowly started backing away.

The speed at which I improved was not enough for my doctors, so they tried adding a different drug to my "cocktail". Two days later I was again struck with seizures and went back to the physical hospital. At that time, my Neurologist actually became angry. She said my psychiatrist should have known better because the new drug was in the same "class" of antidepressant as the first one that had caused me to go into the hospital. I'm guessing she called my assigned psychiatrist, because after I returned to the Resort (never could find the Spa), he sort of apologized.At that time the team decided that slow improvement was better than no improvement at all and I started group therapy.

This all happened over a ten week period, which seemed like forever to me. I was finally released and went home. Going back home actually caused a setback for a couple of weeks, but I finally felt like I wanted to get out in my backyard and at least mow the lawn. Ten feet outside the back door Agoraphobia froze me. Then I couldn't get back inside the house fast enough. I retreated to my bedroom, closed the shades and door, got in bed and covered my head. My wife came home from work at her regular time, saw I was out of it and called my psychiatrist. He asked if I had taken any Clonazepam. No, I had been so terrified I couldn't think of something smart, so I took an additional dose and within an hour or so was able to come out of my room and back into the light.

On my next visit, my psychiatrist said to start by standing by the back door two or three times daily until I felt comfortable, then start opening the door 2-3 times a day for as long as I was comfortable.

OK, I'll cancel the "rest of the story", that's TMI.

Bottom line is that some psych drugs work almost immediately for some people, but not for others. Some psych drugs don't work at all. Some people need a cocktail of drugs for improvement.

I can say that after 10 years, going from severe to chronic depression, I have been able to cut down on all my meds and have felt normal for a few days. The first day I felt "normal" it was such a high compared to the depression, I called my psychiatrist, worried that I was developing *lost the word* (the up and down mood cycling mental disorder). After talking with her, the dx was, I was feeling normal. After more that 10 years, I'd forgotten what normal felt like.

It doesn't "sound" like you are in as much trouble as I was, so I expect your psychiatrist will find a drug and dosage that is right for you.

IF you were prescribed this by a family doctor and you don't see improvement, definately go see a mental health specialist. Sometimes, even often, Family Doctors are not quite the experts in all things medical that they think they are.

Agape,

Bob

PS: I know you don't know me from Adam Off, but I have been here with this team the longest of any current member and I'm asking you to consider doing me a favor. Please consider changing your name to something positive, or at least neutral. Being called a dork by almost anyone else is considered to be a negative comment about them. Please don't think of yourself that way. To my way of thinking, and I'm definitely old fashioned, "Eccentric: is OK, so is "Walking to the drum of a different beater [that's me]", but being called a dork is belittling. Maybe I am too sensitive because I was referred to as "the dork in the corner" for too many of my socially molding years.

Edited by: POPEYETHETURTLE at: 12/16/2014 (15:31)
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emoticon to the team, EMILYELIZABETHH. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandmother. Grief can play havoc with depression and it takes time to heal and find peace. Be gentle with yourself... as gentle as you would be with a dear friend. Remember also that your doctor is only a phone call away if you need additional support. My heart goes out to you.

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