Welcome to our team!
My answer to your question ("why can't I handle things better?") is: each person's difficulties are unlike those of other people around them, especially in the specifics of the challenges. And the resources that each person brings to bear in his own particular situation are also very different. Similarly to trying to compare apples with oranges, it is a waste of time to compare oneself with others.
The thing to do is to compare yourself to yourself. If you find yourself in a place you don't want to occupy, then wisdom would tell you to make a plan for specific areas of your life. In a way, you've already begun this journey (your plan to make two phone calls tomorrow for appointments with your mental health team). It's hard not to be impatient, but you've only just started on the road to better mental health, so patience is called for.
You have joined a team of compassionate individuals who are in various stages on their fitness journey. We are willing to listen and to share with other members from our own experience. Stay in touch, okay? I'm glad you've joined us!
Co-Leader, Lewis County Sparkers
Co-Leader, Dealing with Depression Team
"This land was not willed to you by your ancestors--it was loaned to you by your children."---Kenyan saying
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"-Dr. Seuss
| Pounds lost: 18.0