Here I am in a bikini. This bikini is my dream size, so it's a little too small in a few places. I thought, though, that I'd make it my profile picture in order to not pretend that my weight is my ideal. I'm not hiding behind my more flattering pictures. I'm out there, flabby parts and all, to begin my honest journey toward the body I want.
Truly, I have little weight to lose compared to many of the other users on Sparkpeople, and I don't mean to diminish your goals. For me, losing 15 pounds will one of the hardest things (I think) I have ever done. It is so easy to snack on a little of this, a little of that, and tell myself that tomorrow I will make up for it.
Well.
Here I am, 15 pounds heavier than I want to be, and I am not making excuses for myself anymore. I want to live in the body I dream of. I don't want to regret another day wasted ashamed of myself. I exercise my butt off and want my body to reflect that; not to reflect the snack and treats I eat. So here I am, Sparkpeople. I had a great day today, made no excuses, and publicly commit to doing this again tomorrow. And the next day. And the next. Until I am my goal weight of 150.
I am gluten free, I hate GMOs, and I drink tons and tons of water. I love to be outdoors. Nothing scares me, well, spiders do. And the dark. I'm not afraid of supporters and motivators calling me out on my food tracker, so please do. I love sugar and sweets, and these two will be my biggest challenges in my weight loss.
I will be in my ideal body by summer. With an even tinier bikini!
| current weight: 163.0 |
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