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Hey guys (and gals), I've been a member of this team for quite a while but I've been mostly absent since joining. I don't think I ever introduced myself when I joined, so, hi everyone, I'm Candace. I'm 32 and 273 lbs. I've struggled with my weight my entire life. The lowest my weight has ever been was at15-16 when I took Fen-phen for a while. I got down to 155 and I was briefly what I like to call "fat skinny" meaning thin but not fit. I'm only 5'2" so at 155 my BMI was still considered overweight but I would be emaciated if I got down to a supposedly healthy weight for my height. I have a bigger frame and naturally carry more muscle mass. Surprisingly, even though I was thin-ish, I was completely unhappy. In hindsight I can confidently say that that stuff was the devil. After taking the medication I gained it all back and never stopped gaining. About 4 years ago I lost 70 pounds which got me down to 210. I was super fit and healthy, I felt great and confident. Then I stopped losing, gained back 20 lbs, got pregnant and gained a lot while pregnant. After my son was born I lost a little and was 255 lbs and got in the habit of snacking a lot and eating "bad" foods way too often. When I hopped on the scale last fall I was 286 and about lost it as that was my heaviest weight ever (not counting pregnancy, where I was 292 at delivery). I about died right there of a broken heart. *sigh* I'm so disappointed that I gained the weight back. Since then I've been trying to recommit to being healthy but I'm a self sabotaging a lot, I guess because I'm still upset about regaining and feel like a failure. About 2.5 weeks ago my mom, who is probably about 20-30 lbs less that I am, decided to start weight watchers. I prefer Spark because I like to track other nutrients like protein, carbs, fat, and fiber, so I'm back on here. Tracking is definitely helping me stay on track again and be accountable. I've lost about 12 lbs so far (about 8 since recommitting 2.5 weeks ago). I have a Bodymedia Fit Link armband, which is awesome and syncs with Spark. I've been wearing it and seeing what a lazy bones I am. I have no workout clothes that fit so I've been using that excuse to effectively procrastinate with exercise. I ordered new workout clothes from Lane Bryant (it's so hard to find my size in a sports bra!) and a new swimming suit so I'm not going to have that excuse any more. I actually WANT to get moving, it's depressing to see how inactive I am. So, yeah...I didn't mean to ramble on for so long, but that's my story and who I am.
Current weight loss goal: 262.8
Long term goal #1: 186 lbs by my next birthday (must lose an average of 2.2 lbs per week to reach)
Long term goal #2: 155 lbs (end goal weight)
It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get up. - Vince Lombardi