I've been looking around the boards and unfortunately I already know some of you from the infertility team.
I'm sad this team even exists, but here I am...
I just had my third miscarriage this weekend. We've been TTC for 2½ years now. First 15 cycles nothing happened. Then we started the IF-workup. I found out I was pregnant in the middle of it, so the clinic cancelled the rest and just wished us good luck.
That pregnancy ended in a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks. The embryo had stopped growing at around 7 weeks. I had to have a D&C.
We went back to the fertility clinic and found out the results. Apart from my endometriosis dx (that I already knew about) they also diagnosed my husband with MFI. They told us to try on our own for another 6 months before coming back for a possible IUI.
About 6 months later, I fell pregnant again. I spotted all the time, but no one took me seriously when I talked to Dr:s about it. At 6w5d I started bleeding and we went to the ER. The ultrasound showed a perfect embryo of the right size with a good heartbeat. They told me the bleeding would probably stop and everything would be fine. Well, just a few hours later, it was all over. Again.
Then it took us another 6 months to get a positive pregnancy test now in January. This time I had done a lot of research and I did everything I could. I ate baby aspirin, vit. C, D and E. I had an early scan at 6w4d that showed an embryo measuring just 5w5d with a slow heartbeat. The dr was optimistic and thought I had just calculated the ov. date wrong, but I knew I hadn't and at that point I just knew it was doomed. And I did miscarry AGAIN at 8 weeks.
I'm so tired of this. This time it was very hard on my husband as well. We were so sure it would work out this time, but it didn't.
We now have a referral to RPL testing, finally. It's a 3 month waiting list, but it doesn't matter since it's very unlikely for us to get pregnant again before that.
Now I'm anxious to find the results of the testing. I want an explanation, but at the same time I don't. What if it's something that can't ever be treated? What if we don't get any answers and I will just keep on miscarrying once every year until I turn 40?
This is not a fun situation to be in.
Co-leader of spark team infertility.
If you forget to water your own grass, it will always be greener on the other side.