Welcome to the team.
I hear ya. All I can tell you is what worked for me and thousands of other nicotine addicts.
I joined a 12 step fellowship called nicotine anonymous (NicA for short). I kept smoking as I regularly attended meetings week after week after week. I read the literature, got to know the people in the groups, let the process that I was learning sink in. I allowed myself the TIME to come to new understandings and shift my desperate love affair with my cigarettes.
The truth about weight gain is that there may be a 5-7 pound adjustment your body might make. Anything more is just transferring addictions onto your food. I was told by doctors to get rid of the smokes first, then take care of the weight. I didn't like to hear it but I proceeded. I really wanted to learn how to unchain myself.
I am now 13 1/2 years clean. I still belong to NicA and attend meetings and do service work for the fellowship. I found out that: We can do together what we cannot do alone.
If you are interested, search for live meetings within an hour from you. They are the best. If you have none in your state, there are online meetings called Voices Of Recovery (VONR) that are very strong. A third choice are the more loosely run daily phone meetings.
Best wishes to you! Write back if you want to ask any questions.
With grace and self esteem, honor the Passionate Tiger in You. Refresh your personal high regard (daily) in order to live happy, joyous and free.
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