Hi all! I'm Kelly. 29, been a smoker for eh.... about 16 years.. early start :(
I have two beautiful children ages 2 and 5 and I'm tired of not being able to keep up with them. My physical wellness is in jeopardy. I'm a strong woman, I have been smoke free before. I quit when my son was born, and stayed away from them for nearly 8 months before I picked back up again. . . then I quit for a month... picked back up..... I've done that quite a few times... and I'm tired. I'm tired of relying on chemicals to maintain my stress levels. I'm tired of smelling like smoke, I'm tired of having smokers breath, yellow teeth, and being unable to meet my fitness goals because I can't keep up....
My life is unmanageable because of my habit... and to top it off it's getting too dang expensive!
This is not going to be easy by any means... I live in a house full of smokers and I'm only using welbutrine to help me quit. It's helping a bit, but I know that this is going to be challenging. I need to find a healthy way to stop... something to sub out when I start craving......
Mostly I need support. Somewhere I can go to find people who are feeling just like me...
I'm out of cigarettes as of about 8 am... I'm not buying anymore.... so today is day one.... I have to work. I work at an addiction rehab, which is kinda ironic.... but it's stressful.. so not smoking today is going to be a big challenge. . .
So I guess this is where it starts.... gotta start somewhere.... no better time than the present.
Working towards a better me one day at a time.
| current weight: 230.0