I have so much on my mind today.....sometimes you just are at a loss for words. Here I was thinking how much worse could it get right now. I bought tickets to go to Vegas and stay for a couple of weeks. I bought a ticket for my grandson who turned 18 this past January. Meaning his Passport expired. Not to worry he has a state ID...a Civil Air Force ID a social security card. No Drivers License yet though. Today he tells me he left his ID in a friend's car and it cannot be found. Now I am not sure we can get on a plane because all of his other ID....expired on his Birthday in January. I jumped on TSA.gov to check traveling documents. Oh yes no longer can he fly with me...without Government ID. I contacted Secretary of State to see if they can issue photo ID's in case of an emergency. Not know if they would qualify this as an emergency or not, only to find out they are closed today in honor of Presidents Day. Leaving me Tuesday ..which knowing I was leaving at 6am on Wednesday I scheduled a meeting for work....before I took off. To make sure my client and I were on the right page while I was out of town. I have to drive an hour to meet my client and it's set for 1 o'clock in the afternoon. Meaning I have to leave home no later than noon...and 11.15 to be on the safe side with traveling in this weather. You never know what will happen. So...if I could get an ID for the kid....that would be my last call. And I don't have the time.
Ok...so you would think maybe transfer the tickets for him to come a day later or something but no, I bought them as non-refundable thinking what would go wrong. I have insurance to cover if something happen to the plane..say delay or rescheduling. Nothing for lost ID. So I am sitting here thinking how life sucks. I open my email to read a short note from a friend that I have no spoken to in a while. After reading her news update my troubles seem non-existent to her dilemma. I am sitting here wondering how I could come up with a plan to help her out or if she would even allow me to. A friend that I feel is strong, funny at times, caring with a big heart, but right now is down on her luck. Personally and financially. I want to ask her a hundred personal questions, but I don't know where to start and I don't want to step over the line. Yet I have this feeling I am about to do just that. I am going to break a barrier that most of us put up and do not want others to cross.
How do I tell her I am doing this from my heart and from the goodness I get from her when we do talk or chat is more of a way of putting it. How do I tell her I am not prying but am interested as a friend. How do I ask her to take my help without feeling guilty or unworthy, or sad. To feel happy that I can maybe help her out a little if not all the way. You know sometimes a little can go a long way. That I do not understand how things went wrong but I do understand they can, and they can also be fixed with the right decisions, actions, and mind set.
I most likely will end up in Las Vegas alone ......for the next two weeks. Well my son is going home and will be there but he is not my traveling buddy, that was my grandson. I am still going even if on my own I need a break from cold weather. I need to get my mojo moving in other directions and I can not do that if I am stifled here in the winters coldest time of the year. I don't like winter in my old age, but then I don't like the extreme heat either. So what does that leave me with? Does anyone recall that old Byrds song: A time for Everything,
A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep
A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones, a time to gather stones together
Well all I can say is now is a time.