Hi, I'm 46 years old and have had a weight issue most of my life. Sounds like the start of an AA meeting.
I have had patches of brilliance where I was in really good healthy shape and then just let it slip away. I need to do some work figuring that out at a later stage. Need to figure out how to keep weight off - but that would be jumping the gun. Another problem - living in the past - used to be in great shape - AINT NO MORE!!
I feel I am a smart lady, focussed, capable, intelligent - but when it comes to my health - I put me last and am really dumb. If my car was in as bad a shape as me, I would have got rid of it - yet I have allowed myself to get this way. 5'7 and 108 kilos - but worse I sit by and watch life more and more. I used to suck the marrow out of life. I was an adrenalin junkie - up for anything, rock climbing, potholing, bungy, parachuting, rafting, sledging, cycling, half marathons - now I watch it on TV. Ok some of it is Age - some of it is money - most of it is weight.
I need to figure out what I gain by putting that food in my mouth. There must be a pay off for me. I have to find what is SO GOOD about eating that I am willing to give up so much for it. What is it about food which makes me eat myself unhealthy. I wouldn't swallow a poison which would make me sick - why do I do it with food.
This writing stuff down is quite useful - Never looked at it like that before.
I have done some crazy stuff trying to lose weight - I cycled half way around the world - Great Diet by the way - got down to 59 kilos and was hot. Recommend it to anyone who has a few years to travel.
Took a few kids to pile it on.
I even went on TV and did a Fat Ad for Xenical - Hugely embarrassing being fat and public, - Was around 95kilos at that stage. Bit of a laugh but did nothing for me - I hate pills - so Xenical was never going to work.
I also gave up smoking in here which helped pile on the kilos.
Got up to 110kilos and then decided to train for a half marathon - got down to 85 kilos and completed 3 half marathons - Best time 2:36.
I seesaw between 1:10 and 85 a few times and here I am .
I have a loving man, two kids, a german sheperd, and some fish. I have a great job. I would like to give them a better me - They have really never seen me at my best - and they really do deserve a fabulous me. I just need to figure what keeps me fat, my relationship with food, how to maintain momentum, how to enjoy the journey and not get obsessed by the end result.
Okay enough - Hello to all, all assistance welcome. I have dabbled with sparks before but this time I am embracing it all. So here goes.... Anyway of for a walk now - cant sit here typing all day - don't suppose that typing uses up too many calories. It does however stop me from eating (-;
I am doing it - I am really doing it. No regrets - I am going to leave it all on the floor
Goal 1 = 100 Kilos ( down 13.6kilos)- Done
Goal 2 = 90 Kilos (down 10 kilos - Working on it
| Pounds lost: 31.0