Boy, have I been where you are! Only the pivotal time for me was turning 50 (so for you, weight loss will be easier!). I'm also married to the guy of my dreams, who thinks I'm the sexiest, most beautiful woman no matter what my weight. It's an extremely emotional issue for me because I want to believe him but I've hated the way I look for too long to count.
I'd urge you to read some of my posts! I thought I'd done everything to lose weight and finally reached my low point (but high weight!) at the beginning of 2011. Told my sweetie and myself that I had to do something drastic to even see if it was possible for me to lose, so I started Medifast on 2/18/11.
I'm down 60 pounds and have maintained that for over half a year. I'm recovering from spinal surgery and a trip to Maui (not at the same time!) so I'm recommitting to MF to lose those last 20-30 pounds. I'm at my lowest adult weight that I've ever been but still have a way to go. If I can do it, you can too!
Medifast isn't for everyone, and my type 2 husband didn't want to do it but he's lost 50 pounds in less than a year following this plan:
Another great resource to help you address the "why do I sabotage myself" issue is Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth. A little BS-y at the beginning but about half-way through I really identified with my emotional eating triggers.
Another great book that helps with the issue of carbohydrates (remember, diabetes is a carbohydrate-intolerance disease) is Gary Taube's Why We Get Fat.
Trust me, the older you get the harder it is to lose (I know you probably already know that). So check out some of the above resources, make sure you're drinking half your body weight in ounces of water a day, and take care!
type 1 diabetic,
showing this disease who's boss!
February 2013: NEW GOAL! I've lost 60 pounds to date, so it's time to kick these last few to the curb!
| Pounds lost: 4.4