I finally admitted to myself this weekend that the reason I feel run down and tired all the time is that I need to lose weight. I need to get moving and stop eating so much junk. I have always loved dancing and horseback riding, but I've moved into town and my horses are too far away to ride more than every once in a great while. Also, my favorite mare, my best friend for 12 years, died last month, so I am down to just my little boy's mare, who in not ride-able at the moment due to an injury.
I started my diet/exercise program today. I managed 10 minutes of Pilates and some Yoga stretches, but I'm SOOO out of shape. I know it takes baby steps, so I'm going to try to be patient and build up slowly. I know everyone says to walk, but I hate to walk alone and the treadmill at the gym is boring. I don't mind the short videos on this site for now, and eventually will find some classes locally - once I build up enough stamina for them not to be a waste of my money and time. I'd hate to pay for 30 minutes of a class that I can only do for 10 minutes.
Right now I'm sad and disappointed that I let myself get to this point, but I think I've hit bottom - so now its all up from here. I just have to remember that it took a long time to get here, I'm not going to get better over night.
God never gives us any more than we can handle - I just wish he didn't have so much faith in me!
| current weight: 176.5