I started this team because I became a compulsive exerciser in recent months, and I thought it might be nice to have a place where anyone else in my situation could come and get some support. I doubt many people on SP will be interested in this team - after all, people on this team need motivation to NOT exercise so much, which is the opposite problem so many Sparkers have! But I thought I'd start a team anyway.
I've lost 125 pounds, but I shouldn't have. I should have lost more like 110. I became a compulsive exerciser without realizing it. I became very jealous and defensive of my exercise sessions - NOBODY better interfere with me getting the best calorie burn I could! - and it took up so much of my time, and I planned my food and workouts constantly. Like, that's mostly what I thought about all day. I became cranky and irritable because as it turns out, I wasn't eating enough to fuel my exercise routine (which I hadn't realized was as intense as I guess it really was), and I ended up putting myself into a state of amenorrhea. My hormones are all out of whack. I cannot get pregnant at precisely the time my husband and I wanted to start trying. Honestly, it sucks ROYALLY. And yet, I'm having a very hard time feeling okay about eating more and exercising less. After 2.5 years of working on weight loss, it's awfully hard to completely shift mental gears like that. I'm improving gradually, but it's definitely a work in progress.
Anybody else get a little too wrapped up in earning fitness minutes and burning calories and tracking everything?
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