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4/6/14 9:19 A

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Hi Everyone -
I am so glad that there is a HAES team here on Spark People. I really believe that the only thing that I ever got restricting my food and choosing to diet and eating poorly is more weight, gallbladder surgery and stress. I cannot diet for another twenty years so I am really trying with learning to eat well and enough. 1200 calories is actually too little for me to live on and it only triggers the need to binge. So here I am learning to eat well, live well and to love me exactly as I am.

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Hi, I'm Vicki and I have about another 70 lbs left to lose to reach my current goal. But I'm a work in progress and it's slow going so I'm trying to learn to accept myself more as I am now instead of how I want to be. But I will get to where I want to be. Just watch me and see.

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I'm not sure why the group went inactive but I think it is time to revive it.
I'm Samantha and I'm just trying to find a place to fit in and get more fit. I've got over 100 lbs to lose and that isn't going to happen overnight. So I think that rather than discourage myself by looking at a scale the ideal thing to do is just focus on healthier living at the size I am. When I lose (and I know I will) that will just be a perk.
Anyway, here looking to meet some like-minded people to share the journey.
A little about me, I'm literally starting over in life. Divorce, ended relationships, I lost virtually everything in the midst of all of that. Right now, I'm back to living at home and trying to reclaim my life after a couple of emotionally abusive relationships. Being single again is a major adjustment. I'm 35, work insane hours, and am trying to build my writing career. I write under the name of Anne Belle and have started to build a blog around my own healthy lifestyle journey. You don't need to follow it but, its just something that I do.
So, I'm game for friends and interaction through here. I'm just setting all of this up so, I'm excited to meet some new friends.



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Hi, Laurie and Everyone. SP warned me this is an "inactive group," but I'm hoping at least one of you will join me in reviving this team. Upon reading Laurie's intro post (bottom of thread), I instinctively know Im on the right team! I'll check in once a week (that's the GOAL, right?) and hope to hear from some of you. XO P.S. My name is Bridget.



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8/4/12 9:51 A

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Hi guys! This is me - will post more later. Glad to find a HAES group here!

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Rejoined~ new user name...

I'm Vicki and I live in Florida.
I'm working towards making the healthiest choices I can when it comes to taking care of myself. I've put away the scale and will no longer weigh myself except when at the doctors office. I don't want to define who I am ever again by a number on the scale. I've done that for way too many years.
I do want to make exercise a top priority as I have a couple of health issues that exercise would improve. Also it would definately give me more energy.
I'll basically be doing a low fat plan because I feel it's the healthiest way to eat. I want to incorporate a lot more veggies and fruits into my food plan and a lot less red meats and oils as they don't agree with me very much. I don't consider this a diet since this will be the way I eat from now on.




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I'm VB and I live in Florida.
I'm working towards making the healthiest choices I can when it comes to taking care of myself. I've put away the scale and will no longer weigh myself except when at the doctors office. I don't want to define who I am ever again by a number on the scale. I've done that for way too many years.
I do want to make exercise a top priority as I have a couple of health issues that exercise would improve. Also it would definately give me more energy.
I'll basically be doing a low fat plan because I feel it's the healthiest way to eat. I want to incorporate a lot more veggies and fruits into my food plan and a lot less red meats and oils as they don't agree with me very much. I don't consider this a diet since this will be the way I eat from now on.




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TINIERTINA
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Hello, VICKI, we meet again ...

Yes, we are here to make healthy choices ... and to be reasonable about our goals.

We cannot agonize about our limitations in doing so, whether a tight budget or a tight schedule - or both!

There are no one-size-fits-all goals.


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Find a way.

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Thanks for the welcome. My team is about making the healthiest choices we can whether it's food, exercise, or just staying positive.





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Hi, my name is Tina ... I lead a very similar team to yours ... we are sort of the recreational wing of HAES sparking and into fitness and above all, a positive-nutrition team... BUT I was curious to get to know this team as it seems new and different ...

HAES is still so controversial ... and Linda Bacon is such a HAES rock star, I have no words to describe my appreciation for her ... !




Lesser artists borrow, great artists steal.

- Igor Stravinsky

Find a way.

--Diana Nyad

(Said after swimming from Cuba to Key West without fins or shark cages)

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I'm a 55 year old woman that was 100 lbs thinner in 2005 and would love to be back at that weight if at all possible.
I want to get my body back to a weight where I have less pain and I feel better about myself and how I look. I keep yo-yo-ing in my mind about just getting to a healthier weight (185 lbs) or pushing myself to get back down to what I weighed in 2005 (142 lbs). So for now I think I'm just going to work to get down to the 185 lbs, then decide if I truly want to push to go further once I reach the 185 lbs. I don't expect that to happen overnight anyway. I'd love to be 185 lbs by this time next year and that's the goal I'll set.





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6/28/11 3:44 P

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I haven't read through everyone's intro's; I'm at work! I've actually lost weight with another program that also does not recommend counting calories nor aiming specifically at cutting calories, but does advocate eating food that appeals, etc. I find it helps once in awhile to get some more support from other sources to reinforce those principles. I see that participation has dwindled here. Maybe we can get things going again? emoticon

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3/27/11 3:33 P

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Hi, everybody! I'm SO glad this group already exists . . . I just started reading "Health at Every Size," and when I got to the page where she talked about not being sure how the book would stand alone as opposed to people coming together as a group and working together, I thought, "I bet there's a SparkTeam for that!"

I have struggled with weight and self-esteem all my life. I am nowhere near the heaviest I've ever been, but what's important is I'm not at how healthy I know I should be, and I want to change that. A nurse friend offered to help me through the Ideal Protein Diet, which was new to me, and I was desperate enough to try it, after seeing the havoc a restrictive diet did to my father. I decided that while I was giving this diet a try, I wanted to be researching how I wanted to eat (and more importantly, LIVE) when I got my energy and food choices back. This led me to "Ravenous," which led me to "Health at Every Size." I'm only on page 29, but I'm excited about reading through and really thinking about the content and sharing with others as they do the same. I am a 32 year old newlywed who has a husband who will love and support me no matter what I weigh or look like - but I want to be as healthy as I can for him and for the children that I hope we will one day have!


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DARTHLAURIE
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What Angelia isn't telling all of you is that she's also an amazing costume designer...so glad you made it here, Angelia!

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3/13/11 5:48 P

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*waves hi*

I'm Angelia =)
I'm a emotional binge eater. Have been pretty lax in being any sort of healthy lately and have zero jeans that fit. I'm living in stretchy pants!!!!!
for me, thats just not ok! Its hard to do yard and animal chores in stretchy pants!

I've got horses, one of whom I'm trying to put major weight on, the other is just her =)
have chickens, a dog and a cat too~ Then there are the kids... LOL
I live in the severe boonies~ as in my driveway is the first one on the left~ 1 mile up the road. a gravel one lane road. =)
Love it!

My first goal is to keep a food journal so that I keep track of what I'm eating. I'll worry about calories later!

Nice to meet everyone!


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DARTHLAURIE
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Low self-esteem is the hardest thing in the world to deal with. I'm sure the bullying and shyness probably contributed to it, but you are no longer that child. Your inner child may need to be nurtured and loved, and since you're now an adult, find ways to nurture that inner child. When I was a kid I wanted to dance, but that wasn't allowed. One of the things that got me dancing was because I realized that the little girl who wasn't allowed to dance or play a whole lot because she had too many grown-up concerns needed those outlets and permission to do those things she wanted to do. The inner child also asked for Play-doh and colored pencils and a coloring book. Providing those things actually helped a lot. Thankfully that part of the needy inner child phase was so brief that I didn't need to dig out my dolls except for one Christmas. So yeah, nurture away-- it will help with your self esteem.
I believe that good health needs to begin on the inside and work its way out...you need to lay the groundwork by believing you are worthy of your own respect and love and then you find the ways that you need to honor your body-- making better food choices and finding forms of physical activity may be ways you express respect for your body...and all of that feeds back into more self esteem.

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I don't know if I can pinpoint when I started to turn to food for emotional support. I have very low self esteem. I'm almost 50, but I think my low self esteem goes back to being bullied when I was young. I sucked my thumb and as a result had a very bad overbite. I was teased and bullied and never had any self confidence and was (still am) painfully shy. I've always kept this to myself and if I get upset, I turn to food. I'm reading Health At Every Size and it make so much sense.

I was able to successfully diet and get to my goal weight, but I couldn't maintain it and that re-started the cycle and I gained all my weight back. At this point, I just want to be healthy and happy and not obsess about my weight.

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DARTHLAURIE
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It's amazing how damaging our parents and loved ones can be, isn't it? Especially when they think it's for our own good!

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My parents divorced when I was just 3 years old. My mom has always been supportive and allowed me to have a healthy sense of weight and eating. However, my dad remarried a women who was the EXACT opposite, and even though I didn't see these people that often, their comments and suggestions derailed my mom's efforts.

My father and stepmother constantly berated me with rude remarks about how I was going to get so fat that I would need a walker when I got older. They would also make remarks about my choices of food, and of course it was always negative remarks. It's one thing to teach a child about nutrition, but it's something else when you tell that child they are stupid and cannot be trusted with food.

Throughout all this time I secretly had a dieting mentality. The weird thing is that I didn't even realize I had a dieting mentality until I read Intuitive Eating in college when I was getting my BS in Dietetics. Since then I have been sorting out my disordered eating. Working on myself and my outlook on life in general. I've been learning to trust my body again, and I feel I have come a long way.

Two years later, I am finally understanding what it means to be an intuitive eater. I've lost a dress size, and I am proud to say it wasn't because I dieted :)



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Wow...you guys are like twins! LOL Welcome, Beatrice...I'm glad you're finding your path to happiness and I hope in some small way you can find inspiration and strength during the hard times here. ;)

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We seem to have a lot in common, you and I!

I hope that 2011 although stressful for you, will also prove to be your best year yet!

Welcome to the Team!



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Somehow, I missed the introduction before I started posting elsewhere on the page. Mea culpa.

Like several of you, I have a long history of disordered eating. I was first diagnosed with bulimia at 16 and anorexia at 17. As an adult I've been in every size from a 4 to a 24.

Last February, I joined a gym, and with the help of a terrific therapist, uncoupled exercise from dieting. A year into my journey to recovery, I am the happiest I've ever been.

2011 looks to be one of my more stressful years. I have a lot of change coming down the pike, and my recovery has removed my old model for dealing with stress. I'm ready to learn some new methods, but I wish I wasn't doing it in such a crucible.

Still, I'm happier than I've ever been and every day I find new wonders and a greater sense of peace.



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Thanks for being part of the team and giving me so many things to look up! LOL


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Debra Mazda is amazing, I have all 4 of her DVDs and she's also on facebook under her COmpany's name: ShapelyGirl Fitness (ShapelyGirl is one word)

I enjoyed reading about the Fat Nutritionist. I too am not at a point where I can afford the $1200 but just reading her site and her blogs was wonderful; it gave my hope for the world of health and nutrition. Yay!

Thanks for creating this team! It's about time we have a movement for HAES!

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You are inspiring! Thanks for the links!
If I could afford it, I'd look into the Fat Nutritionist and the personal trainer... unfortunately, I'm not able to do that right now.
On the bright side, my bf and I went and got gym memberships at the local city fitness center. Of course, it might be another week or two before my ankle can handle that sort of exertion. Hopefully I'll see my doctor next week and we'll see if this has been a really horrible sprain or something else.
Seriously, anything you want to post-- tips, insights, things you're learning, things you're frustrated about-- post them! emoticon

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Omg I want to cry and hug you at the same time (tears of joy and shared sadness)!!!

I was told about HAES in Spring of 2009 while seeking treatment for EDs one of which was Exercise Bulimia/Anorexia (I had both as it depended on how I was using it). I also had Non Purging Bulimia and had used EDs since I was 10. My mom put my on my first diet when I was 10, Slim Fast, bc I was too large for her liking. I was larger than my cousins, on her side of the family, all twigs, so she assumed I was eating just for the fun of it.

I've been everything from a Size 3 to a Size 22. For the first time in my life, I can say that I am truly happy. I've gotten my emotions under control and I can for the most part avoid emotional eating and binging. As a result of Intuitive Eating- something else I was turned onto in Recovery/treatment, I have lost almost 5% of my body and am starting to fit back into my closet of clothing. It's no longer my goal to lose as much as I can. But it is my goal to just be healthy, active, and loving both of myself and others.

I have also found Drs that follow Size Acceptance. We just moved to a new state 6 months ago so I only have an OBGYN, whom is also a woman of Size. My favorite instructor is Debra Mazda, a Plus Sized Pers Trainer and Exercise Physiologist
www.debramazda.com
She has started the movement for Women of Size to get healthy and active.

I am to the point now of just letting my body go where it takes me. Obviously is can lose weight bc I have and have dropped almost 1.5-2 sizes (from a 20 to a semi-tight 16). I am having fun training with Pilates and just getting stronger in a way that makes my body feel good and my spirit strong. Perhaps my weight will stabilize, perhaps I'll more.

But all in all, it's good to find this team. I am glad I did a search. I am pro- Size Acceptance and fight that battle daily with others here at SP. I'm tired of the general public telling me I am unworthy and worst, unhealthy bc I of my jean size and weight. Marathon runner drop dead daily, and larger ppl live into their 80s and 90s- many without complications provided they keep moving and eating well.

Here's to HAES!!!



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I just bought a workout outfit from Old Navy online... I've never bought anything from them, but if I like the way it fits, I'll probably buy more from them.


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I tend to buy a lot of clothes from Old Navy, as they offer petites in size 0 - 20 and I'm a 16 there. It's definitely my intention to focus on positive, healthy action, and to try to notice the results in how I *feel*. The doctor who harped on my weight was a surgeon; I haven't actually seen her since that follow up appointment. At the family practice I go to now, no one has ever addressed my weight - although each time I have to switch Primary Care Providers (I seem to get the ones who get promoted or go on maternity leave...) I'm afraid the new one will.



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Welcome, Kimberly! You've had quite the journey. I have the same clothing issues you do. Most of the time I've just given up on finding petite plus... although I'm pretty happy with the petite plus jeans I found at Fashion Bug.
One of my mantras (and I'll probably say it over and over like a broken record) is you can control what you eat and you can control how much physical activity you get, but you CAN NOT control what your body does with these things. Maybe you'll lose weight, maybe you won't, but if you eat mostly healthy and you get some form of physical activity each day you WILL be healthier-- your heart, lungs, bones, and other internal organs will feel the difference.
As to your doctor issue, if you're doctor is constantly harping on your weight, you may want to look for another doctor. I was going to a shrink for depression and he was constantly telling me "You'd be happy if you were thinner-- it wouldn't hurt if you starved yourself a bit." I told my regular doctor this and he told me to tell the shrink, "You tell him that he's supposed to worry about your mental health and I'll worry about your physical health." :)

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Hi there! I'm Kimberly. I didn't worry one bit about my body and I completely trusted my appetite... Then I went to college. In my first year of college I was diagnosed with depression. Some of the symptoms included not eating - because I didn't want to go to the caf alone, or because I forgot, or because I didn't feel like it - and throwing up whenever I felt guilt - which if you know anything about depression, you know is ALL THE TIME.

I lost maybe 10 lbs and I started to get worried. My cheekbones were more prominent than I thought was okay, my clothing sizes went down - and I'd been content with my body until this point so now I was worried.

When she diagnosed me, my doctor put me on Paxil, which has weight gain as one of its side effects. I put on a lot of weight very quickly. My parents got worried about me. I didn't much care to look at pictures of myself.

I fell into very typical dieting habits and thought patterns. Eventually I switched medications and lost 10 lbs right away; over time I lost another 15, and while that coincided with a period of eating well and exercising, there had been plenty of other times when I did those things and found no correlation. Over the next few years I gained 10 back.

When I was 24 I had my gall bladder removed and at my follow up appointment my doctor told me that my BMI was too high and I needed to lose weight, because it would only get harder as I aged. Since then, I've gained 20 more pounds. I have done everything "right," I've done everything "wrong," and I've been completely unable to find any patterns.

I've read Dr. Bacon's book as well as Intuitive Eating a couple of times, and I keep coming back to them.

A few nights ago I had a dream which revealed to me how much I needed to love myself exactly as I am. So, here I am - Health at Every Size.

As I read the book and the examples of the magical thinness which will improve everyone's quality of life, they think, I realize that I'm so fortunate. I have a husband who loves me and thinks I'm beautiful, I don't have to struggle to eat intuitively. My greatest frustration is not being able to find attractive clothes in a petite plus size range.

It's time to start loving myself as I am. I look forward to the HAES Revolution!



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Welcome to Health at Every Size! I'm Laurie and I created this team because even though I'm probably in the minority on SP, I believe weight loss should not be the reason to pursue a healthy lifestyle. I believe that focusing on self-love and self-acceptance are the foundation for a truly healthy lifestyle. I also believe that you can be fat and healthy and that being overweight in itself isn't a death sentence or an excuse to not live passionately.
It's taken me a long time to even get to the point of tolerating my body.
When I was a kid I was tiny; I was the smallest kid in my class all through elementary school. I hovered around a hundred pounds until I was 21.
When I was in sixth grade my mom had her stomach stapled. She was probably close to 300 lbs. She lost a lot of weight, but her eating disorders really took hold. She became bulimic; occasionally she was anorexic. I grew up believing I needed to pursue a concave stomach in order to be desirable. When I was 18 we were in a car accident that put my mom in a wheelchair. I became her caretaker and I was the primary breadwinner with two part-time jobs. I took care of my mom and two younger siblings the best I could. That meant giving my mom anything and everything she wanted. Since my mom couldn't exercise (exercise bulimia), she turned to other forms of purging that included using laxatives... a lot of them. She got down to 80 lbs. before being admitted to the state hospital (she had other mental issues as well). She said that was the happiest time of her life-- strange because it was the worst time of my life...I was gaining weight and I wasn't eating much. I'd be surprised if I was eating more than 1200 calories a day. I was changing her diapers and she was unconscious or delirious most of the time.
She got somewhat better in the ensuing years. She put on enough weight...she may be around 120 now, but her body is in pretty bad shape from multiple surgeries (several brought on by her paranoia), drug abuse, and her eating disorders.
In 2000 I finally found the support and courage I needed to leave her. In 2001 I lost the most wonderful person I've ever met-- Kim helped me learn how to live my own life while he was dying of lung cancer.
After Kim died I became depressed...even though I did everything I could to stay busy. Sometime in 2002 (probably the beginning when Salt Lake City was hosting the winter Olympics) I started to binge. I didn't realize there was a problem with bingeing. I figured it was the purging that caused the problems. In less than six months I gained sixty pounds (bingeing when you have a thyroid problem isn't a good idea). I call this period my binge coma because I really don't remember a whole lot and when I "woke up" I realized I didn't have any clothes that fit and I was a lot bigger than I remembered being.
I really hated myself. I felt like a failure. I felt like I should kill myself. The only thing that stopped me was Kim told me I wasn't allowed to kill myself. I knew there had to be another way.
I started working out regularly and I discovered a size acceptance group in Yahoo groups. I started realizing that being fat didn't mean I should be ashamed of myself. I found out there were plus sized scuba diving tours. At the time I didn't even know how to swim and I couldn't afford to do such a thing, but that realization helped me take a huge step...I enrolled in belly dance classes with one of my best friends. We've been dancing ever since. At times belly dancing has been the only form of physical activity I've done. Belly dancing has helped me realize how wonderfully powerful our bodies are and how every shape has its own beauty.
About the same time I first read about Health at Every Size. I was amazed to hear someone-- a doctor-- say that it's okay to be fat...that dieting may cause more harm than good, and that physical activity and eating healthy were the keys to good health-- even if you didn't lose weight.
So...I've been slowly embracing those things. I'm hoping that others will join me on this journey and find their own joyful forms of movement and realize the uniqueness and strength of their bodies.

*bounce!*


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