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5/5/15 3:01 P

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I'm new to the group but it makes it so much easier to follow out of sight, out of mind! It happened at lunch today that a delivery person of a very delicious food was bringing food for a coworker. I rode the crave wave, and ate my lunch without feeling frustrated or like I was giving up anything. It's been a while since I've been working on this plan and I'm down 10lbs thanks to my program and support. So much so that some of my coworkers have been asking what I've been doing so of course I share!



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4/30/15 10:22 A

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I totally understand where you are coming from. One of the reasons the candy bowl is a challenge for me is because I feel too embarrassed to announce to my office that I have a weight problem. But happy to share that on my husband's suggestion, I hid the candy bowl in a cabinet, and problem solved! Out of sight, out of mind. I also told one coworker (who I suspect brings in the treats) that I moved the bowl into the cabinet so I wouldn't be tempted every time I see it, because I am on a diet. It was no big deal at all. What a relief!


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4/29/15 7:46 P

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I do not share with my co-workers because I am afraid. I once did a "Biggest Loser" competition at work, but after seeing what some people weighed initially (meaning "tiny") I was discouraged and didn't compete in another competition. I heard some co-workers talk about a challenge that they are doing on Facebook, but I'm not sure if I want to do it or not, or if it would be ok to ask.

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4/24/15 3:21 P

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Has anyone shared their weight loss goals with their co-workers? I have been having a GREAT week so far staying on plan, and I think a big part of that was not having any candy in the office, which I always find so tempting. Lo and behold, today there is a giant bag of fun size Snickers. I've already had two in the 20 minutes since I discovered the bag was there. It's especially hard to resist when I'm stressed out and/or when I'm "too busy" to eat lunch. And the worse part is that they don't even taste good! After a while they just taste bland and plastic-y.In the past, two fun size snickers would lead to four which would lead to eight (or more), which would lead to intense sugar cravings and binge eating at home. But I feel so embarrassed asking my coworkers not to bring candy into the office because I can't control myself, which also carries some shame for me that I'm so overweight. It's beyond embarrassing and I'm not sure how to address it, but that candy bowl is so detrimental to my health that I feel I need to muster the courage to do something. Has anyone else tackled this issue before?

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4/17/15 5:37 A

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I wish there was a way to stop worrying. It accomplishes nothing. I pray that I can stop thinking of my upcoming appt., and just relax for now.

Rose D.
"The beautiful journey of today can only begin when we learn to let go of yesterday." ~Steve Maraboli


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4/15/15 9:35 P

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I loathe the fact that my husband doesn't understand what I'm going through with binge eating. Today was not a great day. Having issues with co-workers and having to do their job and I was having a MAJOR binge attack in the GROCERY STORE we work in. NOT a good thing! Especially since we have a small deli area with horrible processed foods. I settled for Chex Mix, a Dole fruit cup and half of a 100 Grand. I flat out told him I want to binge and just want to be left alone to eat in peace and he ACTUALLY asks me if he can eat an Otis Spunkmeyer Cheese Streusel Muffin IN FRONT OF ME! REALLY?! Did you REALLY just ASK me that?!

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3/17/15 6:10 A

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I've been listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer's "101 Ways to Transform Your Life" every night. The affirmations are comforting even though some make me cry. I suppose that can be a good thing, get it all out.

Rose D.
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After the deaths of my parents, just months apart, I lost myself, my desire to take better care of myself. I want to change this, at least, for my son's sake. He may be a young adult, but bad behavior can be contagious. He is struggling to get back on track also after gaining weight since starting college. I need to find a way to motivate myself.

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3/13/15 5:52 A

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Seems like I'm starting over everyday. No matter, I will continue my daily efforts to improve my health.

Rose D.
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3/10/15 1:21 P

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I hear ya! lol Even though I am finally loosing weight, I feel the same way. I am GREAT at making plans and lists and goals and then not following any of them for much longer than a few hours. At this point I'm not sure what plan I am following. lol I was attempting the Paleo Whole 30 reset program but I am pretty sure it's too rigid for me, so for now, I'm just trying to stick with the Whole 30 foods as much as possible and not worrying about adding in little amounts of "unapproved" foods as well. We'll see how it goes.

At least you are still on SP and in the mindset of still working on your health. I used to give up completely as soon as I lost my way and not get back on track for months or years. I am finding that constantly reminding myself about the things that loosing weight will bring me helps a lot and even though some people don't like being "negative" or hearing others complain, I think it helps me to be able to vent and rant because then I feel better and more able to keep trying.

If it helps at all, I never mind reading any ranting or complaining and can always lend an understanding ear, or in this case set of eyes! lol I hope your day gets better! emoticon emoticon

"...it makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder, makes me that much wiser so thanks for making me a fighter." "..no more, its over." "...but in the end you'll see, YOU WON'T STOP ME! I am a fighter, I ain't gonna stop, there is no turning back, I've had enough!"
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3/10/15 11:21 A

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I am really struggling. I make all these plans, and then don't follow them, It seems like I've been chasing round the same obstacles for a while, I'm nearly my third year Sparkanniversary, and I am still where I was three years ago.

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3/9/15 2:32 P

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Hi, I'm new to this team and just introduced myself on the other board. I've been trying seriously to loose weight since Jan. and have lost 17lbs following Paleo, on and off but I am not sure it's for me. I started it because I have severe arthritis in my knees and hands, and many digestive issues and Paleo is supposed to help with that, and it may, but it is very strict compared to the way that I am used to eating. I started a strict Whole 30 Paleo reset challenge this past Sat. and I am really struggling. Feeling lethargic and exhausted even though I think I am eating enough. I wonder if it's really like withdrawl symptoms that I'm experiencing. I don't even want to eat because nothing I can eat either sounds good or will take too much time to make and I have absolutely no energy to exercise. I'm going to try to stay with it but I don't know. We'll see! lol Happy to have found this group though. :)

"...it makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder, makes me that much wiser so thanks for making me a fighter." "..no more, its over." "...but in the end you'll see, YOU WON'T STOP ME! I am a fighter, I ain't gonna stop, there is no turning back, I've had enough!"
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3/9/15 6:01 A

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On my fourth day of my re-start, I binged, although it wasn't major, I am disappointed. I will get back on track today!

Rose D.
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3/7/15 7:36 A

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I saved for and allowed a beer-battered fish dinner last night only to find I didn't really like it as much as I thought I would. I felt greasy. I believe my tastes are changing a bit.

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3/7/15 7:25 A

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I've had 2 really good eating days, yet, I am feeling fearful because it's the weekend. I have to stay focused on health and stop worrying so much about what might happen. Taking it one meal at a time, focusing only on today.

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I am so glad I found this thread.

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1/13/15 11:53 A

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you would think that starting a new year I would be all gung-ho. I was prepped, lunches packed, veggies bought, workout clothes washed and waiting by the door and yet I haven't moved forward at all. Then I panic when I look at how much work around the house, finances and weight I have to lose and I fell back into my old patterns. Started hitting snooze on the alarm again and pushing when I come to work. and yesterday I bought a tray of the mini cupcakes and I ate them all. I used to do this all the time and I'm frustrated that I started again, but I'm too tired to even care right now. I just needed to write this down and get it out there. I have to follow through, I have the tools but some days its just hard.

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12/7/14 10:46 P

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I would say that I lost the battle with a couple of candy bars today, but I didn't even fight. I wasn't upset that I knew of, I was not bored, but they were there so I ate them - like my life depended on it. I'm guessing my upset is deeper down, and I'm trying to keep it there. oooh ok - ugh. Thanks for a place to start working it out.

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I'm falling back into the habit of binging. I had been doing so well but things have been crazy around here and I just keep gaining so why not right? I really need to go back to having my strict rules and find other ways to not eat the cruddy food that I seem to crave at the moment. I'm scared that this is really who I am and I will never see my goal weight - I have a repeated history of losing 40-50 lbs and then repounding right back to where I was. I'm so over it and I just on the brink of accepting this is really who I am supposed to be - a lazy, depressed, fat person that can't bend over or do anything other than sit on the couch for the entire day. I need to claw myself out of this hole but I just don't know if I have the strength to do it again.




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6/15/14 11:45 P

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I understand what you are going through. I keep on trying though. I may go away and I always come back to SP. Today I ate some cookies which put me over the calorie limit. But I am not hungry and I exercised the last two weeks every day. So, Im accomplishing things but not always giving myself enough credit.

Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” ~Theodore Roosevelt www.fitnessforweightloss.com/helpful
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6/7/14 9:17 P

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Hi. I have been off spark for a long while...and many pounds gained- so I'm back. What's different this time? My husband is on board with me. We need each others support to get the weight off and get healthy.

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5/9/14 2:07 A

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I also grabbed food today, I had candy bars in the glove compartment for months, I ate 3 of them today, plus more, I hear ya, I know when I start to do things like this it's time to spark again, w/vengence. Tonight I am sparking away. May has been so busy and full of changes I think I got abit sidetracked too. we can do it ML, we really can, just refocus w/me.

~Maci~ Oceanside, CA
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5/8/14 6:24 A

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This week has been bad for me!! I've let emotions get the best of me and eat eat eat! I'm finding it hard to get back on track! My husband's work is very stressful right now so he's distracted and cranky at home, which doesn't help me. I'm struggling to find a way to not let his stress get to me. Any suggestions? I'm tired of turning to food, but can't stop myself!!

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4/9/14 12:53 A

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Do them now!

~Maci~ Oceanside, CA
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4/8/14 7:58 A

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Thanks, Maci. I did make those Fast Break goals, but I haven't followed them. :(

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4/8/14 12:45 A

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Terra girl this really works trust me and just do it!
pick 5 things you know you can do, and do them the rest of this wk, Make them easy and doable.
here are the ones i did to get on track when I was face first in food
1. eat breckfast
2. take vitamins
3. spark (write on one team)
4. exercise 15 min everyday. (walk around the block!)
5. only Fruits and vegis after 10pm.

Make up your own, just make them easy, it's a great place to start to create boundries, next wk you can always change them.

~Maci~ Oceanside, CA
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4/7/14 7:47 A

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I haven't tracked my eating for about a week.. And I have backslid.. I had only started a week before! But it's the emotional stuff, I think. I wasn't sleeping (still not sleeping actually), I've been stressed about school and my upcoming summer job.. Just trying to get through the day.. and if I'm hungry, I break down.. The problem is that when I'm hungry I crave horrible things.. fried foods, starches, chocolate, etc. I have eaten more crap than good stuff in the past week. :(

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4/7/14 2:34 A

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No worries we all blow it occasionally! but i do have to say, when I put my cals in the nut counter, I never do as much damage as I imagine. My thought is if the cals are under 2000, it's not a blow it! if so no worries, it is only ocassionally now, it used to be a common occurance. Pick yourself up right now, you are successful right now, just keep the trend going for the next 24 hrs. You can do it! We can do it!

~Maci~ Oceanside, CA
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4/5/14 10:18 A

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Don't get disappointed - you are gonna stay on track! Get the bad food thoughts outta your head and keep moving. YOU'RE GONNA DO IT, GIRL!


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4/5/14 10:12 A

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I totally blew my calories last night. So disappointed this morning. At least I can say I made one good choice and had water even though I wanted the beer my fiancé was having.

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4/5/14 2:48 A

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Hi Penny, no I am more of a frog, I love to wade and sit in the water, esp the jacuzzi. I dont do cold pools as well. But i love the warm ones. Alot! I have missed going to the jacuzzi so bad this wk, scared to get sick again. Holding off on all big activitys till Monday when i hit the tennis courts again. Tennis is my passion, I play competively.

Today was amazingly nice. Did cool things w/all my gkids, it's the last day of spring break so i let the $ fly today! fun to do. Let hubs off the hook to and told him to go ahead and hit the floor on his construction project so he could work well into the night. and wake up and finish whatever project he is doing. He is always amazed when i encourage him to do that. I don't care, and he doesn't ask me so I feel like awsome Wifey if I come up with it. I understand his passion for his work, I have it w/things too.

No strong urge to eat tonight, but of course eating crap always sounds good to me, w/i cals, munching on carrots for fun and sticking to my goals today! woohoo. Sounds like you had a nice day too! If not though don't be afraid to vent, I find that i can have many great days, than Bam! a hard one hits right when I dont' expect it! Or someeone pisses me off and my only thought is grrrr I want to eat EVERYTHING! so we have to write on the good days so we can be there to write on the bad days or moments too! thanks for being my safe buddy!

~Maci~ Oceanside, CA
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Hi! I had a pretty good day. I got the spark activity tracker in the mail and used it to walk to the store and back - 3.5 miles. I was surprised that it was that far. I mapquested it and it wasn't that far but I try to stay as far away from the street as possible. I walk down the less-traveled roads and through the park. And on the way back, I was carrying groceries which are always heavier halfway home. But I ended up burning almost 500 calories so it was worth it!

I'm glad you're back out there, MACILINN. I'm the opposite - I'd rather exercise at home because I really don't like Hartford so walking in Hartford isn't the high point of my day. I like peace and quiet. If I lived in an area like where I grew up, I'd be outside all the time. SERENITY. Your walks to the beach sound peaceful. You lucky chic! Do you swim?

I'm kind of exhausted right now. Time for a nice, hot shower. I hope everyone's day went well.

Good night for now . . .

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penny feeling way better. actually went on a long walk today, the first day I have left the house for exercise in a wk. Walked to and from the beach w/a friend. very nice. off and running today, picking up Brianna from her spring vaca camp and we are going shopping for monster high dolls. It's gonna be a great day! How are you doing today? (this is the spot where we are real, let me have it, good or bad)

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Thanks for the good wishes, I think they worked, this is the first day I am starting to feel like myself. You are not going to believe what i am doing today... I am going to do a chemical face peel. My friend did one about 2 mos ago and she looked great. i never thought of getting one before. But on my bday after seeing hers a groupon came up with a price I couldnt resist. $52 I bought it than got abit scared to have it done. Now abit excited about it.

I'll let you know if it's a hit or a terrible mistake. I hate my wrinkles on my face, most think I look very young for my age, but if you look close you can see alot of wrinkles. I hope some of these lighten up. Let you know. Wish me luck! Doing it at 5pm tonight!

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I've never heard of ear pain with PND. You'll get through it. You're strong! emoticon
I don't even want to get into the crappy healthcare I've had in the past. I had to go on medicaid because I couldn't work - needed a hip replacement and the doctors wouldn't do it cause I was too young. So, I was stuck with this clinic and this young doctor that I couldn't even understand. Her accent was sooooooo strong. I started to google everything before I even saw her. I still do if I have to go to the ER. But now, I have a great doctor. She's older and speaks English.

I hope you feel better and wish that I knew some remedies for your pain. emoticon

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I have a pisser too! i am usually always well and happy, well over a wk ago I got sick enough to see the dr. and cancel my tennis and I still am. grrrr. She told me that I have Post Nasel Drip. What? she says it's caused from the change of season and allergys, very common this time of yr. Symptoms are a horse, hurting throat and ear infections. OUCH!

Well everynight my throat is burning and my ears are throbbing, so I cannot sleep. they gave me the best antibiotics and pain meds. I am not used to taking anything, well I took them all , and damn it , the pain is still here, I called to make another appt, the nurce called me and said she canceled it and there were no more drugs for me, I would just have to wait it out.

I thought they are crazy, they don't know what they are talking about, and I googled it, yes, It is classic PND! post nasal drip. Omg the only thing i can do is wait for it to leave and take sudafed. and tylenol for the ear pain. grrrrr. so I have given up tennis over a wk now, am so hungry i can't stand it, because I havent' got out of my PJ's for a wk. I am doing my best to stay w/i cals even though apart of me doesn't care at all! and basically I feel imprisioned to this house, my wants to munch, and life, my ears and throat hurt to much to go out, and I feel like just giving in and eating self into happiness. Have done it abit this wk, and it was fun but don't want to gain wt.

So here i am bitching away. feeling like such a baby, watching the world go along w/o me! Good thing is that I babysit my gkids alot so I am not alone and get to see them have fun! bad thing is the same! demands on me to help them enjoy life and I just want to have quiet.
Oh well, this time shall pass. My 5% challenge starts on sat, I only pray I weigh the same as my w/i March 29th, scared to step on the scale before that. No execise, only couch potaoe and comfort eating. Not a good recipe for success!



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Thank you for the support! I feel better today. I can't wait til the weather is nicer and I disappear to the park for the walking trails!

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hang in there Penny, save for a better place to live, know that alot of his behavior is prob just to get to you. Instead of looking like him as a pain, look at him as a bully and bullys are harmless and just plain silly. Learn to laugh at his antics and move out fast! Stick to your guns, sparking, good eating habits it will help you to get stronger everyday.

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Hi everyone. I've been flirting with SP since December but got serious 7 days ago. So, I've been on track for 7 days and did not have an urge to binge until tonight. I had a very stressful day and it usually has to do with my roommate. He's an ex of mine that I can't legally kick out because it was his place first. Not that you need to hear the ugly details - let's just say he drives me absolutely crazy. I am a quiet person and I live in a loud city. I treasure the peace inside my home when I can have it. He's a very loud and obnoxious person, drinks all day long and I'm not talking about water. He lives to drink beer. He loves to belittle anyone he can but because I'm here, I get it the most. So, I stress, stress more, and stress to the point of eating uncontrollably. But, as of now, I have not gone over my calories, carbs, or fat.

Thank you for listening/reading . . . I believe it helped.

I hope everyone is feeling better.

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screaming to late! decided to eat out of a box, one serving, yeah right! I did have one serving, the box! started my day w/1000 cals before the day began. finished the day with most other commitments in tact. So called it a B+ day 8 of 10 commitments done, with detention added in because way over cals. My first blow it day this yr! blow it = over 2000 cals.

Good news is my w/i this morning was the lowest yet this yr. 156.4.

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There have been a few times myself the last 2 wks where I could of sparked her instead of choosing to not do my commitments. I had lost 15 -2 wks ago since Jan 1st, right before I left for my cruise and all my other fun plans, bday and anniv celebrations, I let go of some of my commitments I wrote below. I used the excuses that we all use- Cruise: we were with other people who chose the 8:15 dining, so I ate after my commitment time everynight! (1st choice to not comply) than I went on lots of days away at a tournament (which kept me eating more than one serving of snacks) humm 2nd commitment done. Then one by one, I just started letting them go. Finally doing a few days of eating most the candy in the freezer, it was there since christmas. Lots of it, On my bday March 20, I was 160.8 exactly -10 from Jan 1st. Still good but Oh it would of been great to keep that 15 off instead.

Today I am choosing to reconfirm my choices! I am going to rewrite them again, and do them all from this pt on! i know they work, they were working great and worked in the past. Next time will come here when I want to binge, snack or want to choose to veer from my plans!

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Hi I like picking goals that are doable under any circumstance. Will have to remember this "Safe Place". I could really use it when I am tempted to emotional eat.

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Hi Carolyn, as Oprah says "you can't change what you don't admit" awesome you shared your situation w/us. We all have food/ behavior issues or we wouldn't be here. We all struggle w/overeating, binging and purging is just another part of the overeating cycle.

Today, just concentrate on making some commitments that are doable and do them. Make them easy here are my daily commitments
1. Eat breckfast
2. vitamins
3. spark daily (includes Food and ex tracking)
4. Exercise 30+ min a day. ( it started as 10 min)
5. Only Fruits and vegis after 8.

after you make your own and do them for a wk or so add your cal intake. Mine is between 1000-2000. My avg is around 1300. My goals are things that are doable under any circumstances. I needed to set myself up for success. You can too! If it helps I have lost almost 13 pds since Jan 1st. You can do this! Join us!

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Hi, I'm Carolyn, an emotional eater and bulimic. I know it's gross to make myself throw up but it's very addictive believe it or not. Need to stop because I have congestive heart failure and rotten teeth because of doing this. Really fighting the urge to binge right now.

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stick w/us chickie and we will help you get back on track, remember the first 3 days are the hardest. Make up 5 commitments, doable and easy to achieve and do them! You will be on track before you know it!

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Hey,

For the first time since I started really losing weight, I'm not doing the BLC. I was just too swamped to commit this time and I think that was the right call. But I am veering way off track and am really struggling to stay in range consistently. Getting panicked as the scale is headed in the wrong direction. So my goal this week is to eat in range every day and post on one team board per day. That is it. Nothing complicated. Hopefully it helps.

LivMelodies - that's a really good plan. Breaking anything into baby steps makes it more manageable.

Macilinn - I see your point about eating out. Hadn't considered that. I like to cook but maybe I'll try to eat the same thing more often this week so it's boring!

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excellent choice on the 10 min a day commitment. That is how I started working out. I used to say if nothing else I at least could walk around the block everyday. Now I exercise alot and love it. who knew I would ever say that!

FYI I do my best cal intake eating out. It's so much easier for me to drive through and get a burrito, hamburger, etc. (one item only) and enjoy it as a meal than come home and know I can always have 2nds. Last time I got to goal wt, I ate the same things everyday,.

B: a gbar or cup of oatmeal
L: Sizzler- 6 oz stk, baked pot w/butter and side salad. ( i would pack up 1/2 my stk for later at home or for hubs)
D: a big bowl of chuncky soup w/ some type of brd.
Snacks: Fruit and vegis

Since the first of the yr I eat out at least one meal a day. enjoy life fpods to fun and enjoyable, just stick to one serv of each!

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Started first day of my month goal of at least 10 min workout every day. I realized I have to take this journey in small steps so each month I am tackling a few manageable goals at a time- While including rewards.

MACILINN congrats on your success this past month, I think your ideas will be useful for me to get my portions under control and avoid eating out.Thanks!

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awesome Tea! We are gonna do it this yr!

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Macilinn, I think your approach is pretty clever. I kinda do the same thing.
I am housebound this week, my Mom who is 89 arrived today through next Tues. love having her, but do more cooking than usual. Went to a huge SBowl party, did well, had 3 drinks over 9 hours..no Bourbon!!!!stayed in cal range, but high end. On target today and did well.
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Girls no worries, you can do this! i was face first in food dec 31st and the whole yr before that! Jan 1st, I made a decision, I decided that I was going to lose wt this yr! NMW! (No matter what) Ck out my newest blog (on my sparkpage) it tells you how I did it.

1. I made simple rules I could follow NMW! Doesn't mean I don't fight the feelings and cravings, one of my rules is to only eat one serv of each food, that means I flip the box and count out what a serv is. if there is no box avail I make it 1/2 cup or 10. If that doesn't do the trick I find another food and do the same, i have done this to 4or 5 foods in one sitting, than posted it and called it lunch! There is nothing perfect about it. But I made it doable!

Girls you can do it, because it's doable! Change focus! Don't eat anything out of a box, bag, carton, or basket, put it on a plate, one serving! I never thought that today just 1 mo from my last binge I would be 10.4 pds lighter. seriously! Do it!

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I am a newbie to the site and this team. I have spent my whole life worried about my weight, hating on myself and have lost hundreds of pounds only to put them back on. My biggest struggle is the emotional eating. The intensity of my urges to eat are so powerful, it scares me sometimes. What I am desperate to know is whether this intensity will ever ease? Am I destined to a life of constantly fearing my emotions will lead me to binge or blow my whole weight loss plan? Will this ever get easier? If I knew it would, maybe it would help me get through the tough times....

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Started the week out strong and great with exercise and eating. But whenever i go to my family's place or feel over excited or un-centered around certain places or event, all control of my eating goes out the door. and i go for the worst foods out of compulsion. this has happened to me for the third time this week. So pretty sure ive reversed my progress. sigh. Trying to learn slow down and think about what im doing.

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CTH- Hang in there. Life feels so tough sometimes, just remember that it doesn't feel better if you don't take care of yourself, w eating right and exercise. Stay strong, we are here for you!

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Been worrying tonight about taking care of my parents. I've been doing it for 4 years now and there's been some health changes lately that scare me - his dementia worsening and her back acting up badly from a car accident. I have health problems of my own (fibromyalgia, RA, back conditions) that make things difficult. This is just one of those days when everything seems overwhelming and I needed to get it off my chest. It sure beats the binge alternative!
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my prob foods are the C words. Cake, cookies, candy, chocolate, cupcakes, ice cream, etc. Yes we can do this girls!
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Cosmic, I think our fascination with white bread stems from our "Wonder Bread" childhoods, I can still remember the label touting its vitamins.... For me, the binging involves butter and beef and bourbon.
All the "b" words!!! I am a person of good, quality food excess, no issues with sweets or junk foods like chips. All the chocolate in the world could be gone, but a pound of butter slathered on anything that moves is another whole story, as in 1-2 pounds a week at my 535 pound end.
Now, I buy only Olivo and measure my fat and oil intakes meticulously.
I believe that by recognizing our triggers and being sensitive to eliminating them around us, we can exhibit control. I can look now at foods and say, "I control YOU....you don't control "ME!"
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Hi Cosmic, I hear ya! When people tell their binge horror stories, oh do I get it. I have eaten boxes of cake/muffin/pancake mix w/o cooking it, I have made many batches of cookie dough to eat secretly, and when I was missing ingredients I used to make a sugar/butter combo to eat. white brd, forget it! To many times I have ate the whole loaf! so.. Why am I telling you this? I want you to know i am not doing any of it anymore! Here is how I stopped...

I saw a Dr Phil show about why we can't achieve our goals w/the best intentions, he said we have terrible inner integrity. If lie, cheat, ignore, convince, give up, and defeat ourselves constantly. If anyone had made the promises we make to ourself and broke them as many times as we had, than we wouldn't believe a word they said.

But we have awesome integrity w/others. We pick up our kids from school, get to work on time, keep our commitments to others. the only way to build up this inner integrity is to choose things you know you can do, and do them!

This was my first list:(5)
Eat breckfast (I used to keep gbars in my car just incase i forgot)
Vitamins- (they used to make me sick so got childrens gummy ones.)
write down everything I eat ( sometimes I just wrote it on napkins)
exercise at least 10 min aday (even if It was just doing situps while watching tv)
Eating only Fruits and vegis after 8pm (as many as i wanted)

Those were my only guidelines, today I still have them but they are abit different.( alittle more difficult, my writing down turned into tracking my food on sparks and posting on my teams, My exercise is now 30+ min a day. Otherwise I still have the same goals, plus eating at least 1 fruit a day, a cal intake of 1000-1700, w/2000 being my max a day. I can do it now, in the beginning I could of never did all this.

The secret is to make it very doable, no matter what, and when you can't do it right, do it right asap! sometimes I don't eat enough cals and have to make sure I do it the next day, or life gets busy and I dont' exercise, I turn on an exercise tape and just do it when my fam goes to sleep, if not poss, I might wake up the next morning, put on my tennis shoes and jacket and get walking, and do two sessions that day. It's not perfect but doable.

Hope this helps. The first time I did my commitments I lost 30 in 7 mos, an avg of 1 pd a wk. awesome! good luck!

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Hello All,
I just need some insight, maybe?
I'm a compulsive and an emotional eater since I don't know when. See, I've been obese since childhood so I can't really tell... I had to teach myself hunger, when and how it's alright to eat.
I know anger,stress and frustration drive me off.
I've lost a great amount of weight, and I've made immense progress in handling my emotions another way than taking it all out in the kitchen. BUT there are times that I just WANT to eat, and to my knowledge, there isn't an underlying feeling, or even compulsion.
My longest streak of not mindlessly eating was 25 days long.
I'll go in the kitchen, like I did yesterday, and will find something healthy (most often) I can binge on. I had a whole loaf of white bread (still, better than chips or other processed stuff I've so hard fought my way out of) and then a few barley rusks. I made myself some yogi tea to keep my mouth busy and prevent me from completely derailing. It didn't help, because I realised I wanted to eat just because I wanted to eat. I had some strawberry jelly too.
For me, there is something comforting in white bread. It's what started the binge, actually. White bread actually upsets my stomach a day after. But when I munch on it, I just munch on it. I don't feel anything before I eat bread. But when I start it's too hard to stop. It doesn't make me feel anything too. I just love its texture and taste in my mouth. It's soothing.
I'm not mad at myself for derailing, I know it's a weekly, not a daily differential, and I'm so proud of myself for other victories I can't let that slip bring me anywhere down. I just wonder why I keep binging when I don't feel like it and why it always has to be bread. I mean really, 15 years on a diet, several victorious months of late, so many pounds lost and I binge just because I binge? Wtf?
What you think?

Edited by: COSMICWATCHER at: 1/20/2014 (13:54)
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Hi Rebekah,
My heart goes out to you. I cannot imagine the pain you must be in- You need to know that you have every right to feel the way you feel. I think part of the issue with emotional eaters is that sometimes we might feel like we need to numb the emotions with eating. I'm sure you've heard it a thousand times- you will get through it, slowly but surely. Nothing will ever take the pain away but time will make you stronger. Life is beautiful but can leave you heart broken in an instant, without warning. It is good to hear from someone considering adoption. There are so many ways to adopting without emptying your wallet. So many young children are in SEVERE need of a home. I was a child of "the system" and am blessed to say I had a wonderful foster mother growing up- who saved my life in so many ways! It's something to consider- in the mean time- heal your wounds, at least partially. Hugs!

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a good cry was a good idea. have you seen a fertility dr yet. My friends daughter had issues and did invetro and it took the first time, she just had a beautiful baby girl. Just a thought?

Today the grouch that bugged me at practice at practice, threw a nasty comment at me at our tennis tournament. You have no idea how i want to text her and say "if you don't have anything nice to say to me "Shut up". She texted me last wk w/a snarky text. We all know she can't control her mouth so as of now I havent' said or done anything to stand up for myself. My nickname for her now is bulldog!

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1/13/14 11:18 A

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Thank you Macilinn
I wish there WERE right words lol but I don't think there's any such thing :/ . I very much appreciate your support.

My girlfriend and I had a long chat over the weekend (she knew something was up with me) and she doesn't blame me at all, nor does she think that I'm trying to take away her joy (I was very nervous that she would think I was mad at her or that I was jealous or that she'd have to tip toe around me with pregnancy related things). I'm feeling better about everything now. I allowed myself to cry when I needed to all week last week and all weekend. My husband and I are looking into adoption. Not sure we'll go that route, but we're starting to look into it anyway..

Everything that is now easy was once hard.

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1/10/14 12:17 A

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Mel, so sorry to hear your pain. Don't have the right words to say I wish things were different for you. Sometimes life just sucks.

what i do know is that when we overeat about it, it just sucks worse. please do your best to keep to your commitments, you will feel better in the end. anyways thats what works for me.

emoticon tomm is a new day to do things different, to think things different, to mourn and move on again. I am w/ya on this journey.

Edited by: MACILINN at: 1/10/2014 (00:18)
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1/9/14 4:29 P

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My best friend is pregnant. And I am thrilled for her. But after 5 miscarriages I have a hard time with pregnancy announcements. I mourn my losses every single time someone close to me is pregnant. It's like the wounds are opened anew every time.
I am so happy for her. And I am devastated for my own family. All of the what could have beens...what did I do wrongs...they never go away.

Spent the day eating everything I could yesterday. Because that's going to help. Trying to allow myself to feel everything without needing to eat through them today. It hurts.

Everything that is now easy was once hard.

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1/8/14 7:45 P

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well, I have offically nicknamed my tennis buddy who always causes me such grief: The Bulldog! I told her partner (my BF) the next time the little bulldog wants to discuss something w/me, please hold her back and tell her you will talk to me instead. She just laughed and said where she used to work they called her that too! teehee. Next time I am just gonna say "calm down bulldog"

Blake gson woke up in a better mood, and hubs was so nice to my friends he was even hugging all, he appologised for his dumbness yesterday and took me to lunch today. He came out to the couch last night where i was snuggled up w/Brianna and asked me to come to bed, I said "no, cya in the morning" today we are up and running in love again.

One thing I like to do when I vent my crap is to write my solution at that moment, I will add it from now on. I guess I did! (bathtub) all is good thanks for the venting spot!

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1/7/14 11:41 P

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sorry patty about your dad.

Grrrrrr my prob has been going on for 2 days and I am getting ready to screeeeeeem!
I am the captain of a tennis team, one of our team players lost a 16 mo old gson Dec 26th, the funeral was saturday. Monday was our team "practice" I made the decision to send her a msg saying "we all support you and if you are ready to play on Monday please come, if not no worries, we will see you next wk" doing this i knew there was a chance we would have a court that had to play singles, I decided that we could be inconvienced abit if she chose not to come, if I had filled her spot than there would be no place for her to play. I just couldn't find the timing to ask her if she was coming or not.

Well, one of the players didnt like this decision, she has always been our loud mouth, she was so vocal that it was tough to try to ignore her when she wouldn't shut up. she just kept saying that I should of done it differently, Whatever, I couldn't have lived w/myself if I had, and it was only 1 practice! We have them 52 wks a yr.
That was yesterday, I was so hungry just being pist about how crappy it felt.

Today i send out the league line up, she sends me a msg via text that I should punish the girls who didn't make practice (got subs) and play her higher. I tell her that it's not my job to punish adults, We have a certain place in our line up we play that we do challenges to play for. "If you want to play higher than challenge up" she says that I prob didnt think about it since I dont think about much. I couldn't believe it. I tell her that the line up is as the league standard and the girls are strong enough to hold each line, she texts back "that;s your opinion" I text back, "I am going to spend time w/my family if you want to "call" me tomm, please do so, thank you.

I am so pist that this B**ch, is throwing out crap at me, if I told anyone about it on my team they would just say "That's Eswina for you" most think she is rude and has really poor sportsmanship. I certainly do. She is always telling me I am her great friend and kissing me on the cheek, I always think this is so out of character. I think my new name for her will be sybil! crazy! or psycho! The biggest prob is she is my best friends tennis partner. ]

Ann my BF told me that she wants to play w/me in our other league Thurs, now I hope Ann doesn't want to rock the boat. I just hate mean people, Eswina has always been the meanest. Oh well you can't make a dove out of a lion. grrrrr now my job isnot to eat about it.

Oh and not only that happened, my gson wouldn't go to the Jr high church group I found him to try w/his cousins tonight, he layed in his room depressed instead, and my hubs went golfing w/my SIL and proceeded to get home smelling seriouly of alchol. I sent him to our room to leave me alone, I am done!

Edited by: MACILINN at: 1/7/2014 (23:59)
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