I'm twenty and I now weight a pretty good 190, but it was not that way just a year ago...
In high school I ballooned to 300 pounds. I lived life by watching other people live theirs. I was convinced that I didn't deserve anything. I never bought clothes, shoes, or anything I wanted because I knew I would not look good. For YEARS I have said that I could have nice things when I learn to take care of myself. Why would I buy foods that I like, or splurge and get that teeth whitening strips I heard about? I couldnt take care of my body, so white teeth wouldn't help my looks. Lose 40 pounds and you can have it. I never lost weight, and I never gave myself a break.
When my church gave me the strength and support to invest in my education, I enrolled in college. I realized I was worth spending time and money on my life. I am the heroin of my own story, and every woman should be, but so many arent... I got a hair cut, went to the gym. Ate delicious things! (I whitened my teeth!) I DESERVE a treat. It should not matter what I weight to be worth love, or sometimes giving in. I lost 110 pounds (over 4 years) and I feel good. I deserve a treat because I know I'm worth it now. :)
Edited by: DEVRIHUGHAN at: 6/28/2010 (18:46)
| current weight: 243.0