Seriously. I know that so many people with weight problems normally start a conversation about weight with, "I have been fat all my life", or "Fat runs in my family". Well, in mine it does not and no, I have not been fat all my life but have struggled with my weight since I was a kid.
My mom always wanted me to be a "show and tell" kid, one that is adorable to look at but should not speak. I botched that up by always having an opinion to everything and not being adorable to look at because I was chubby. The older I got, the more aware I was of my weight and I thought that losing weight could be easy; eat and then get rid of it in the restroom. That did not work out so well. It got me really sick and although I lost a lot of weight, I had other problems to cope with.
Now I am at a point in my life (does that not sound so cliche and familiar?) where I really don't have the choice anymore; lose the weight or eventually die from it. I am not ill or anything; my cholesterol is perfect, no diabetes, no "fat" related diseases, but I am 47 years old (soon to be 48) and sometimes feel like 80. I have osteoarthritis, which comes from being on my legs so much (and a major car accident in 3/2011) and weighing as much as I do. The thing is, I don't want to feel this old at such a young age!
I started college in 2006 and am now working towards my MBA, I have an active 13 year old that I would like to play basketball with or ride bike with, I have a 17 year old daughter that really loves spending time with her mom and I have to use a freaking cane to be able to walk!
It is ENOUGH!
I went to my 30th class reunion this past weekend. I thought I looked so great. I mean hey, after 30 years one doesn't look like a spring chicken anymore, right? I saw the picture of the "3 musketeers" (that is what my two friends and I were called) and I almost cried. I do not know what it is that I saw when I looked into the mirror, or what it is that everyone else saw when they all told me how good I looked (being polite to me, I think), but I looked really terrible.
So although at one time (2004) I weighed over 430 lbs, and now weigh 310 lbs, that alone meant nothing. It is not important that I lost that weight. What is terrible is that I still weigh so MUCH!
I found per chance a piece of paper on my desk, a note or something, because I am always writing things down to then research at some later date. It was the URL for SparkPeople.com. It did "spark". I am on my third day. It is actually easier than I thought it would be, especially since I have probably changed my eating habits so many times, it is ridiculous. I have people out there with the same problems, with the same fears, with the same hurdles to face that I do (or maybe different, but they are still out there) and I know...I am not alone. I can lose weight with the help from folks that actually care and are not trying to make money off of my losing weight ;there was enough earned from my getting fat anyway.
So let me run and drink some ice water (did you know that drinking one glass of ICED water helps burn 30 calories?), grab some healthy food and enjoy eating it to lose weight (does that not just sound odd?), and I will see y'all (yes, I'm from the South) around!
| Pounds lost: 7.4