Hi T, you are doing all the right things... mostly realizing you had to do something! You found this site, you are going to the gym... Start tracking what you are eating, you don't want to eat to few calories either (but still no midnight Pringles:)) You can do this, you said you would, you took the first step... Good Luck!!!
I was just stupid! All my life I was leaning towards fat but never was really FAT! Always on the edge... 6 years ago I gave birth to my son and during the pregnancy I didn't get much weight: Anyway, I lost even more after the birth. Blah, blah, blah...not to get into all of the details, I found myself in times when I could and almost had to walk for two hours a day, every day, without wxception! And that was just perfect! I ate more than ever, got hooked on walking... and suddenly I was thin!! Like never in my life before, I was really well toned, able to do anything, strong and self-confident. And I told myself that I will never let myself get fat again. And then...I became stupid! I lost conditions that made me walk for two hours a day, I lost time to walk foe two hours a day...and I thought (forgetting how difficult it was always to take a single kg off, how long ot took...) : well, now I can allow myself to ear a box of Pringles in the middle of the night... Oh My God!!!! In less than one year I became not only the same- a bit fatter person that I used to be - but an obese person that I never really was! And so sad...all those fine clothes I got myself, all those jeaqns my ass looked great in, sfort skirts that I was soooo happy I finally got to wear with confidence...everything I filled my closet with - now I can't wear anything anymore. One long skirt that covers my hips and legs, one pair of black trousers that are elastic and I can wear them (so I tell myself) in any occasion, only depends what I put on top : an XXL boyfriends sweatshirt for day or a looooong black shirt or...something...for the evening. I only change my make-up. The only thing that comforted me was the knowledge I was able to be thin! I was able to lose weight, once in a lifetime I really was thin and hot and recieved a bunch of compliments every day...So I knew I am able to do that again! The only thing was - I had to get myself to the gym. Well, as all the other fat people, so was I too embaressed to go and excercise between all those thin people. But that was the only solution. So I promised out loud to my boyfriend that "by the end of the week" I am going in!! And I went. I really did! I started going tp the gymtwo weeks ago and am going almost every day. I walk on a treadmill for at least 30 min, mostly 45 min...then I step on the eliptical trainer for 10 - 15 min. At home I have a great static bike and every evening I cycle at least for 15 min. I am trying to eat nothing in the evening but the truth is I just can not resist those fruit yoghurts. But, I NEVER eat bread and sandwiches, I don't eat any red meat because I never really liked it, The only meat I eat is chicken breasts. So, I can not say I am on some kind of a diet but I am trying to eat less and healthier. I know I can do it: I already did it once before.and I will do it again. I will fit into my jeans again! I am not going to give my cute clothings again. Please, keep your fingers crossed for me.
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