Hi Rachel. In addition to your Vitamin D levels I would also recommend getting your thyroid function tested (hypothryoid can make you tired, depressed, have a lack of energy and make it difficult to lose weight or even cause you to gain weight. Pregnancy can cause your thyroid to go wacky so if you haven't had it checked since your last baby you should!) and ask your doctor for an A1C test to check your blood sugars because if you really are very much overweight you could have Type 2 diabetes, which could be affecting your body's ability to lose weight. Vitamin D supplements are a good idea for anyone living in Oregon, and Vitamin B complex is good as well for energy. As far as the motivation thing goes, it is really hard. It is a day to day decision that has to be made that your happiness, your health, your self confidence is worth it. I find that the getting to the gym, or starting on a walk is the hardest part. Once I'm out moving around and exercising I feel great.
I have started spending time in the evenings once the kids are in bed looking up healthy recipes. I then plan out my menu for the week and do my grocery shopping based on that. It does take time but I like just looking at my list of meal options for the week and picking one to make and knowing I have all the ingredients already instead of standing in front of the cupboards every night wondering what in the heck to make. I don't plan day by day meals I just make a list of 14 meals (7 lunches and 7 dinners, since our breakfast is cereal or oatmeal) and choose from there.
I grew up with an obese mom. She was very unhappy, depressed. She did not have any friends. She never went anywhere. She stayed home with us and was misreable. She wouldn't go swimming with us, couldn't ride horses or bikes, couldn't swing on the swings or slide down the slide at the park. I remember seeing kids with moms who could do those things and it made me sad and, honestly, angry. I do not want to be that to my kids. I want to be present and I want them to have memories of me doing whatever fun thing it is they want to do.
YOU deserve to make those memories with your kids and they deserve a mom who is happy with herself, can be an example of self confidence and what a strong woman and mother is.
Unfortunately there is no secret to getting motivation. I so wish there was! You have to find it in yourself, as corny as that sounds. And when all else fails, you fake it! You don't have to be happy about being at the gym or eating a salad but you can be proud that you did it and your pride when you see the results will build your motivation.
I'm so sorry I just wrote a novel. I hope some (any part, really) of this helps you. Since you don't have support from family and friends, definitely reach out on here like you've already done and connect with people to encourage you! It will make a big difference! Good luck!!
| current weight: 175.4