You are in the right place!
I agree: YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!!
This is a journey. Some times are easier to stay on track than others. I'm with ya on the extreme stress of losing family members. It's 'natural' to be pulled back into the old coping behaviors.
What's helped me is to break my day into 'micro moments' to stay in the present and not get too overwhelmed. Instead of my 'usual' multitasking compulsion, I force myself to focus on only ONE item until it's done. When I'm in a REAL brain fade mode, I write that item on a post it, look at it regularly and carry it around keeping me on that one task until it's done.
When I'm REALLY out of whack, I go back to logging food, vitamins, water, activities.
Also important for me is to stick to my 'regular' eating routines, making sure that I shop for MY foods first, drinking water and getting my protein in. I have a policy to keep my trigger foods out of the house (crackers, chips, & snacky type items cuz I will eat them until I throw up.) I try to stay active but am not consistent and often forget. I've asked my dh to gently remind me or suggest to me to take a walk, etc.
I also haunt SP reading, commenting, blogging. We all have been there and totally understand!!!
Edited by: PATTYR81 at: 11/25/2013 (11:55)
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"So much has changed yet who I am finding is my old self again." DSCROW's blog 8/1/13
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