hello, 2 years ago, I was deteremined to lose weight. I joined spark people on my pc. as usual, I fell off the wagon, and here I am 2 years later 20lbs heavier. I am so discouraged. Not only am I 20 heavier, I have lupus, arthritis, pre-diabetes and severe back pain from arthritis. I have had to have chemotherapy for my lupus, consisting of 4 consecutive weeks and PT for my back pain. If I could lose the 100 lbs I need to lose, I would feel so much better, if I could only buy willpower!!! I have been reading blogs on spark for the last week and am trying AGAIN to feel better about myself. today I started tracking and bloging. Yesterday's blog feature was so inspiring to me, I am trying again. hope to meet many of you over my journey!