to the team!!
Unfortunately, I know exactly how you feel and I know how difficult it can be to convince yourself to not care what other people think. Sometimes I even feel embarrassed to wear shorts around the house just in front of my family because I feel like they're judging me
even though I know they aren't judging me. It's a very complicated feeling, but somehow you just have to force yourself to not think about it. You just have to get out there and be proud of yourself the way you are right now
because you won't be proud of yourself when you reach your goals physically unless you learn how to be proud of yourself as you are right now. It's something I learned a few years ago when I lost about 70 pounds and I still saw myself as the "big girl" in every situation even though I was smaller than most of my friends. Well, now I've gained all that weight back and I don't really see myself any different than I did after that big weight loss, but when I see pictures from back then I realize just how different I looked and how much smaller I was
Moral of the story here is you HAVE TO learn to love yourself as is and then you'll feel better about yourself at any size and shape. I know it's easier said than done, but trust me, it's necessary. I hope this helps
| current weight: 210.0