There is a reason diets don't work. The reason is sooner or later you fall off your diet and gain the weight back. It might work for some, but you sound like SparkPeople type of person. SP is not a diet. It's a way of life. SP teaches you how to make changes to your lifestyle that will help you loose weight and keep it off for ever. Good luck.
It maybe too late to go back and make a new start, but it's not too late to make a new ending.
I eat to live. I don't live to eat.