Hey there Curvesarein, how are you feeling these days? Please be kind to yourself and realize that you are NEVER worthless, please..wipe that word out of your vocabulary. The feelings of suicide are par for the course with this illness. When you feel that way, please please reach out in real life just as you have done here. Have you been cutting the doses on the advice of your pdoc or have you just been doing it on your own? Adjusting ones meds without supervision from a doctor can seem harmless but then bamm things can go off course rather quickly. Please write me back and let me know how you are doing? I am concerned about you!
Hi, I have been dealing with bipolar 2 for over 5 years. I am on Lamictal and Abilify currently. I have been on and off on Abilify. The first time I took it the mania and agitation was worse. So I stopped it on advice of my Psychiatrist. I used to have more mania then depression. Then depression hit pretty bad so I took Abilify a few days and it seemed to pull me out. Then I thought I would try it again at half the dose everyday. I felt normal for the first time in a long time. Now it is not working, although I am trying it again. My depression has been bad for 6 weeks except one week while on vacation at the beach. This week I cried and didn't want to go on fighting this up and down ride and feeling of worthlessness. Thought about suicide but have NEVER followed through on those thoughts. It's more like I want to go to sleep and not wake up. I really don't want to harm myself. I do have a call into my Psychiatrist today. Could I need a med change after 5 years. I don't want to gain weight. I've lost 40 lbs. Was 50 but gained some, my thyroid is out of whack. That could be part of my problem my GP says. Any input welcome on meds that work for you.
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