Hello, my name is Nicole, Iím 29 and a single mother of a rambunctious 3 year old ball of fire named Stella. I am currently unemployed, I just finished BOCES LPN program and am waiting to take my NYS licensure test. I am also taking classes online through BCC for my RN this summer.
I have been meaning to write this introduction since I joined SparkPeople after New Yearsí 2012. I had a goal to lose 30 pounds (to take me from 160 to 130) by the time school ended this month. My father passed away unexpectedly one week after New Yearís Day. Needless to say I was more worried about staying in school than I was losing weight. Since his death I have gained 13 pounds, on top of feeling crushed and heartbroken, none of my clothes fit and I am incredibly uncomfortable in my skin.
I get bursts of energy and I exercise a lot, walking mainly. Itís good for me because I get time away from my family and I can just think, or not have to think, while Iím walking. My problem is that I walk everyday for a week or so, maybe doing an average of 4 miles a dayÖ then I think I can ďrewardĒ myself by eating poorly.
Itís hard to get motivated, or stay motivated once Iím there. I have friends that say they will walk with me or workout with me, but when itís time to do something theyíre not around. I know that I shouldnít count on them, and I should do it on my own, but I need encouragementÖ I need to be pushed. A friend of mine let me borrow p90x, but itís just been sitting on my book shelf for over a month accumulating dust.
I have recently started to eat better, buying local produce and cutting out processed foods. I hadnít drunk soda for 3 years until I was craving caffeine during clinical for school and drank about 1-20oz Pepsi a day. Iíve stopped drinking soda again probably for about 2 months now. I seem to be addicted to half ice tea/half lemonades from Sonic. I know that I should be drinking just water, and thatís all my boyfriend drinks and he gets really patronizing of me if Iím drinking anything other than water, but I need the flavor.
I just donít know what Iím doing wrong/right/otherwise. Iím hoping that I can really remain focused now that Iíve started to use the SparkPeople trackers. Any help/encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
| current weight: 181.0