Good Morning. My name is Dawn. I've been sparking off and on for awhile now and I do own the Shrink Yourself book. I read about 4 chapters and put it aside to focus on some school work (I'm studying to be a certified fitness trainer and have until Dec to finish my course work).
I am a certified emotional/binge/compulsive eater. I've been on the dieting yo-yo for as long as I can remember. I need to get a grip on things NOW...today. This has been going on far too long. I am currently 11 pounds away from my heaviest adult weight (except during my two pregnancies). It was at that weight where I was once referred to as 'the big girl.' To this day that comment cuts me. I'm not the big girl. I will not go back there again.
There have been years I've had things in control (read: stayed at a normal, healthy weight), but lately, these past few years I am off and running down a road I don't want to be on.
I keep reminding myself of the positive things: I quit smoking last December. I was at a 'healthy' weight of 146 (I'm 5'7'). I put on 8 pounds and I was okay with that. I began running - something I had never been able to do before. As of this past Saturday I have completed 3 5ks and I'm registered for 2 more in October.
Somehow the weight gain (maybe? I'm not sure) set off a series of binges for me that has cost me an additional 8 pounds. ALL of my pants are too tight. I have bulges I haven't had in years. I will NOT buy a larger size. I need to get a grip today.
This is day 2 without a binge. I decided rather than trying to devour Dr. Gould's book in a week or two I am going to do one chapter per week/2 weeks, let it sink in, use the tools and ideas and move on. I do get his newsletters and they are offering a 50% off special. I have the window open and I'm ready to join. I thought I'd reach out to Spark People to see what kind of results you've had with the program. I have to say it makes sense to me - that is me 110%. I have a harsh inner critic - she is a perfectionist and she is sabotaging my efforts to be healthy and maintain a healthy weight.
Thank you for reading this.
Edited by: DMAS555 at: 9/15/2011 (11:27)
| current weight: 161.4