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6/6/11 9:24 P

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Jibbie,
I think you hit the nail on the head... I am 37. I met with my doctor last week and she gave me a depression test and I got a positive result. So, I have started on prozac too. I hope that it can make me feel NORMAL too... Being in a hole is a great description... She said it will take about 2 weeks or so for it to kick in...

I don't drink soda but I do need to get back on the drinking water train. I haven't been drinking anything, probably making myself dehydrated.

- Pleebles, aka Siri

"If you really want to do something you will find a way, if you don't you will find an excuse."

Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/23/10 - 31:48
Race for the Cure 5k, 10/3/10 - 33:11
Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/22/11 - 28:16 (PR)
...Working up the guts to try a 10k!


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6/5/11 12:32 A

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I don't know how old you are but when I was 45 I'd started peri-menopause and I went for my yearly physical. The doctor asked how I was and I said "Well, I think about jumping off a bridge about a 100 times a day." He said "Well, that is a little excessive." He put me on Prozac and I took it for 14 years. It just made me feel NORMAL and not like I was down in a hole that I couldn't climb back out of. I know it was a hormone thing, but after I had my total hysterectomy at 48 the next day I started on HRT and stayed on it for 10 years. (I know they don't recommend it now, but it worked for me as I never had a hot flash, etc.) I felt great. Now that I've lost about 50# I feel better. I also quit drinking COKE-A-COLA which helped me.

I'm glad ur seeing your doctor.

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5/30/11 7:58 P

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Thank you so much Denise. I really like your idea of taking the kids to daycare once a week! I will do my best to search out such an option. It sounds wonderful. Thanks for taking the time to respond, I hope to get to know you better through this team.

- Pleebles, aka Siri

"If you really want to do something you will find a way, if you don't you will find an excuse."

Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/23/10 - 31:48
Race for the Cure 5k, 10/3/10 - 33:11
Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/22/11 - 28:16 (PR)
...Working up the guts to try a 10k!


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5/30/11 2:18 P

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Hello, I wish I had all the answers for you! I have been there myself, though when my kids were those ages it never occurred to me that it was not o.k. to be hiding in the garage eating out of the freezer.

The most helpful thing for me that helped me not feel so overwhelmed at home is flylady.net. (there is also a flylady team here on spark) She helped me to put housekeeping in order in a sane way. I remember being so overwhelmed by my stacks and stacks of dirty clothes! Another thing that she helped me with is dinner planning. It seemed we were always on the go and I didn't know what to cook for dinner so we would grab food out or eat late because I would procrastinate because I couldn't figure anything out. I now keep a running menu plan. Each week I write down 5-7 meals and do the shopping for those meals. Then each day I look at my list and figure out what sounds good and what time wise fits into my day. If we had soccer practice then something quick to make or a crockpot meal. That has saved me tons of calories and stress!

As far as the get togethers. I have yet to figure out over eating at those. I did so just yesterday and am not happy with myself today. I did read the book Shrink Yourself and think there is some really great stuff in there. I didn't manage to get myself figured out though, probably because I didn't do the hard work. Right now I am reading Jillian Michaels Unlimited and I am loving it!!! I can't tell you how often I have watched biggest loser or read books and thought, I need someone to do that to me! or, HOW do I figure out what my issues are? I really feel like she takes you by the hand and helps you figure out what the issues are instead of just saying, yep, you have issues get them worked out.

One thing that I did do when my kids were young was take them to daycare once a week. That few hours was mine. I would go to a movie or lunch with a friend. To this day Tuesday is my day and I go to lunch with a friend! It started probably 12 years ago when my youngest was just a baby. It has evolved and I run all of my errands on Tuesday as well but even the receptionist at the orthodontist knows I won't schedule on a Tuesday. :-)

Your paragraph, "The past month" really speaks to me! I have been there, oh, have I been there! Check out flylady and you'll feel your load lighten then look into Jillian's book to help yourself figure out the deep down stuff. I know, probably wrong to send you to a different book considering the team name but I'm not here to promote SY, I'm here to help myself and support others in getting healthy, both in mind and body.

Good Luck and keep us posted! You can also reach me privately through spark mail.
Denise


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5/30/11 7:07 A

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Hi,
I've been doing the SP thing for several years now. I have no problem working out, in fact I love it (I have three kids ages 2, 4, and 6 and my gym has free babysitting!). I was overweight starting in college when I put on that 'freshman fifteen' and then never lost it.

Finally about 3 years ago I got serious and with a lot of hard work and determination I learned about eating right and exercising. I was able to lose most of the weight and got down to an average weight for my age / height. I felt skinny for the first time! It was awesome.

Over the summer last year I had lots of fun afternoons with kids and moms and chips and guacamole... sometimes wine or beer... lots of bar-b-que's... needless to say I wasn't as careful as I'd been and weight started to creep back on due to my social eating habits.

This past January I recommited to a healthy lifestyle and got back to work. For 15 weeks I was really on my best behavior, l had about 1 day a month (sometimes 2) where I would slip up and overeat, usually due to going out for dinner, a birthday celebration, etc. But, I was able to lose those extra pounds that I'd put on during the previous summer.

The past month has been awful. I am eating like I've never eaten before. There is something going on with me deep down that I don't know how to deal with. I am overwhelmed with my life, (my oldest is in afternoon 1/2 day kindergarten so all three are still at home with me for now). I look around and all I see are projects to do that I don't ever think I will get caught up on. I am trying to eat clean, and menu plan, and save money cutting coupons, and stay on top of friends and family and the other obligations that come with life such as laundry and house cleaning and making dinner... and I guess I am depressed. It all seems so overwhelmning to me. So the easiest thing to do is eat. At least I can control that, right.

I have been binging like there's no tomorrow. Searching my house high and low for chocolate in any form. Going into my basement and eating frozen food directly from the freezer in secret while my family is upstairs. Most of what I'm eating is in secret, at least the bad stuff. It's like if I don't have food in my hands I feel lost.

I wish I could understand why I am doing what I am doing. I worked so hard, I was feeling so strong and proud of myself... and now, I am throwing it all away with something that often seems completely out of my control.

I'm hoping - praying - that someone on this team has been there and is no longer there - and can provide some advice as to what I do to get out of this phase. I have so many blessings yet feel so unhappy right now.

Medically I am healthy, at least I was in November when I last saw my doctor. Low blood pressure, low cholesterol, etc. I do have an issue that I haven't had my peroid since February. I have been to see my ob/gyn two weeks ago and she did some blood work and came back with a slight hormonal imbalance so got me 10 days worth of progesterone. I took that and am now waiting for the period to show up... she said it would...

I've got an appointment with my primary doctor on Thursday to discuss things. But I'm not very good at talking about this stuff, even with my doctor.

ANY advice, guidance, suggestions, support, etc., that you are willing to give to a new team member who is at her wit's end... I would express heartfelt appreciation to you.

Thanks for listening.

- Pleebles, aka Siri

"If you really want to do something you will find a way, if you don't you will find an excuse."

Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/23/10 - 31:48
Race for the Cure 5k, 10/3/10 - 33:11
Hair of the Dog 5k, 5/22/11 - 28:16 (PR)
...Working up the guts to try a 10k!


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