Shelley....I am sorry hear of of your losses! You have certainly gone through more than your fair share of heartache and grief. I am glad you came back to SP for support! I hope you are finding ways every day to care for yourself. Please let us know how we can help in any way.
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Hi, my name is Shelley. I joined spark people about 1 1/2 years ago and did pretty well until my world started to fall apart. Around this time last year my dad was diagnosed with cancer. I pretty much became his care giver as my mother was not able to completely care for him but she did help. He passed away January 5th 2012. My life became all about juggling my own family and helping my mother who was of course very depressed and helping my sister with MS who began having a string of seizures. During the spring of 2012 it seemed like my kids were sick over and over again. My husband and I were looking forward to the end of June when we were due to have another baby. We were thinking that her birth would be such a nice new fresh start, a way to put the sullen past behind us. After all, my mother wasn't as depressed and my sister was no longer having seizures, and our children were once again healthy. On June 21st our baby girl was born. Anna Isabella was born with 3 different birth defects. We were aware and prepared for none of them. My beautiful sweet precious girl lived for 8 weeks. We were never able to bring her home but I was able to visit her everyday in the hospital thanks to the help of friends and family. While Anna was still in the hospital my mother became ill. She eventually passed away on September 8th. My mother was my best friend. I will never be the same again. I dearly loved and cherished both of my parents. And as for my sweet precious girl, my empty arms will ache to hold her for the rest of my life. In 8 months and 3 days I lost my dad, my mom, and my daughter. I do know that Christ is our saviour and so did my parents. Each day I cling to the hope of eternal life in Heaven with my loved ones. I am sure that they are there together, loving my baby and waiting for me to get there. But I also know that they would fully expect me to carry on here for the sake of the precious children that are here with me. I feel like I have to pull myself out of this grief and this "comfort" eating. So here I am, back on SparkPeople.
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