I'm new to sparkpeople and to the PM system - I have been trying it for the last 8 days now and so far it's going okay. I have had some success with hypnosis CDs before so that's what attracted me to it, and then I thought intuitive eating was just my cup of tea. I have done this somewhat in the past but in an unhealthy way - if I found myself craving something, I would eat pretty much nothing but that thing until it made me ill! Now I'm going to be more sensible and listen to what I need more subtly.
I am 34, live in Lancashire, UK. I have been big since I was a child and never tried losing any weight till I was about 25. I was about 19 stone when I started and got to about 15.5/16 at my lowest. I lost weight with Atkins, then when I had enough of the sugar cravings and nightmares about eating carbs (seriously!) I switched to Slimfast (pretty much pure sugar!). I've also had some success with regular 'sensible' low fat diets. I don't know whether to expect to lose weight at the same rate with Paul McKenna as it's a different sort of thing. I guess I will just have to wait and see! I don't want to rush anything so whatever happens, happens.
This time, my starting weight was back up to 19 stone (266lbs), (which is what told me it's time to do something again!) and I'd like to be about 10 stone (140lbs) but I have no target date in mind. I don't know whether that's a bad or a good thing - in some ways it might help to focus but I also want to just let my body do it's own thing and relax. I am going to a wedding towards the end of September though and it'd be good to lose maybe 2 stone (21lbs) by then and I think that's totally doable. Paul says don't weigh yourself too often, which I won't struggle with as I have sabotaged myself many times previously by weighing myself to often - I plan to only weigh myself on the 1st of every month, which is even less than he has 'allowed' in the 90 day plan that I'm working on initially (then I plan to carry on with it afterwards).
I love the CD, I do feel amazing for listening to it and truly believe that it's making me like what I see in the mirror, giving me a more happy, positive feeling and making me want to exercise - that NEVER happened before.
The only things I'm struggling with so far are working out when I'm hungry - I know I will get better at it. When I'm hungry, I know it, but sometimes it seems ages since I last ate and I think I MUST be hungry by now, but I'm not. Then gradually I start to think I might be, and then WHAM I feel it for sure. I am getting hungry around midnight though, and I am conflicted about whether I should be eating then...everything I've ever learned tells me not to.
Also, I really have to sit and concentrate on my eating better. I'm finding it ridiculously hard not to turn on a screen around me or read something, or stop getting up and doing something or talking to someone. I had some success earlier with classical music because it was something but not attention grabbing or distracting.
That's all for now. Pleased to have found this forum rather than paying for the PM website!
| current weight: 260.0