Hi I am new to this team and I hope that this will help me with my anxiety/depression as it has gotten worse over the past few months and I am at the point of not knowing what else to do. Here is some backstory to me.
I have suffered from depression since 13. And I have always been a perfectionist, workaholic, overachiever, what have you in everything I set my mind to. Now thatís great and all but it causes me a lot of stress. I received a degree in Japanese. Traveled and worked in Japan multiple times, I have also went to Korea, China, and Italy. However, every career I got I would need to be perfect at (I know thatís impossible) but I always felt inadequate. When I left my teaching job in Japan I had teachers crying since they loved my work so much. I never saw that. When I left my translator/interpreter job I was complimented immensely on my skills even though I felt that they were not up to par.
Now I transferring back into school for a business career so I can open up more opportunities. In the last year I have found the love of my life, got engaged, dealt with a personal bankruptcy, started weight loss program, restarted counseling, and other things but as I write this I am almost in tears.
I am so stressed. I work 70 hours a week to pay for the wedding and honeymoon in 9 months. Financial Aid at my school is being stupid and classes start in 2 weeks. I worry about the future constantly and panic attacks have become a recent occurance.
I admit I sometimes wish it would all stop because I donít know what else I can do to feel better.
Sorry for the vent but I am hoping the information in this team and the support of people here will help me get through this year and succeed in my goals.
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